《我与他的双向救赎》一叶知境

6、能一直这样，真好 能一直这样

　　第六章
　　稀稀疏疏的滴落声在地面响起，远的，近的，荡出一片涟漪。常温和雨幕中的树一样不知躲避，不同的是，树好像是被赐予了力量，叶子重新变得透亮，可常温还是无法变得清醒，只有身体更加僵硬冰冷。
　　古潮湿了眼眸，淋透了周身。那一抹淡黄的街灯，也随际风印流淌。
　　“哥哥，手术马上就要开始了，你别害怕，手术成功率很高，做完就好了。”
　　“你看起来比我还害怕。”常温浅笑。
　　林林刚准备说些什么却听见了医生的传话
　　“46号床病人准备手术。”
　　“等着我，林林。”
　　林林咽下了那句话，只说了一个字
　　——“好。”
　　林林注视着常温被推进了手术室，关上门的一瞬间，林林像是被抽掉了所有的力量，瘫坐在地，手紧紧的攥成拳头，发白的指尖将手心掐出血痕。“哥哥，要加油啊。”
　　手术室内，医生给打完麻药后，常温在慢慢的失去意识，昏昏沉沉，常温突然升起一种恐惧，如果手术失败了，林林怎么办啊，谁来照顾他呢，可常温心忽然一沉，反正不应该是我这种需要小孩子照顾的废物吧。常温睡了过去，可能是因为打了麻药吧，手术中的常温并没有什么异样的感觉，只是醒来的时候恶心想吐的感觉更加明显了。
　　“哥哥，你终于醒了，医生说手术很成功！”
　　常温看向林林，林林眼神有些躲闪，低下了头。
　　“抬头”
　　林林恍若未闻，常温用手托住林林的下巴，轻轻的抬起了他的头。
　　那样红肿的眼睛，看的常温心里一滞，许久没有说话，直到林林轻轻的撇开了头，常温才开口：“别哭，林林，别为了我哭。”
　　林林鼻子一酸，眼泪差点又掉下来。
　　“哥哥…我刚才很怕，我好怕你出事，我好怕你会丢下我…”林林有些语无伦次，一句话断断续续抽抽噎噎的说完，泪水终于决堤。
　　常温什么也没说，只是默默的抱住了林林，在他耳边浅浅的说了一句话
　　“林林，以后都不用怕了”
　　被夜色笼罩的病房外——
　　“夏安，快跟上…”顾年愿悄咪咪的说。
　　夏安看着偷偷摸摸的顾年愿，觉得好笑又无奈。怎么明明是来看望的，现在却…像做贼一样？
　　“夏安，顾年愿，进来吧，我隔着这么远都听到了。”常温忍住笑意开口。
　　“切，没劲，还想给你们个惊喜呢”顾年愿索性也不藏了，大大方方的走了进来。夏安也跟着踏入了病房。
　　“你们来了怎么也不通知一声”
　　“惊喜说出来了还能叫惊喜吗？”
　　“我俩都在门外偷听半天了，这么温馨的场面还真不忍心打破呢，早知道我俩晚点进来了。”
　　“话说，你们俩怎么过来了？”
　　“请假过来的呗，你都这样了，我俩还不过来看看？”
　　“看你们这样，说吧，什么时候在一起的。”
　　“这都被你看出来了，我们还想自己‘自报家门’呢，也没多久，大三下学期的时候在一起的，现在大四了，差不多快半年了。”
　　“那挺好的。”
　　“先别说我和年愿了，说说你自己吧，这个小孩看着也就十五六岁的样子，你挺变 ’ 态啊？”林林不禁逗，小脸一下就红了，赶紧低下了头。
　　“这小孩叫徐林，十五岁了，我们……”说到这，常温停顿了一下，戏谑的看了一眼林林，后者脸红扑扑的，大眼睛忽闪忽闪的看着他。
　　“我们在一起了。”
　　林林听了这话脸更红了，感觉能滴出血来。
　　夏安一切都看在眼里，也读懂了一切，看向常温的眼神只有三个字，我，都，懂。
　　“你这刚做完手术都能吃什么啊，好像只能喝粥了，那我和年愿现在去给你买一些，你先躺着。”
　　也不等常温回话，夏安拉着顾年愿的手就出去了，顾年愿一脸不明所以然。
　　“哥哥，那两个哥哥是你的朋友吗？”林林开口。
　　“嗯，我们认识有几年了，毕业之后就很少见面了。”
　　“好羡慕他们啊。”
　　“林林羡慕什么。”
　　“他们好幸运，可以一直一直在一起，”
　　“林林，我说过的，我会一直陪在你身边。”
　　“哥哥，你要快点好起来。”
　　“当然。”
　　林林站起身来，替常温整理着被单，却突然停了下来。
　　“哥哥，下雨了。”
　　常温坐直了身子，像外看去。
　　“是啊，下雨了呢。林林，我很喜欢下雨天，不大的雨淅淅沥沥的打在很多地方，从窗外往远处看，街道，楼房，行人，都只剩下了一些模糊的轮廊，让很多人回到家里，这样的场面，还挺温馨的。”
　　“哥哥，我一直在想，如果下雨天你在我身边，也不算太糟。”
　　“我一直在你身边。”
　　“哥哥现在病好了整个人都阳光了很多呢。”
　　林林眼睛里亮亮的，真的很像星星呢。
　　“才不是呢。”常温摇摇头。
　　有你陪着我，我又有什么理由颓废不前呢。
　　林林很疑惑，刚想问为什么，门外就响起了夏安的声音。
　　“常温，快来接粥，外面下雨了，给你买个粥，我和年愿都淋湿了！”
　　林林赶忙上前接过了他手里的粥。
　　“你这样子还真挺狼狈的，都浇成落汤鸡了。”
　　顾年愿随后便进了屋内，与夏安不同的是，他的头上多了件大衣，所以他看起来没那么狼狈。
　　“夏安！都说了我不用你的外套你还非要塞给我，非要感冒才罢休？生病了就让你和常温挤一个病床，挺大个人也不知道心疼心疼自己。”
　　“我体格好，感冒了过几天就好了，心疼你和心疼自己都是心疼，那我还不如心疼心疼你。”面对顾年愿的唠叨埋怨，夏安并没有感到不耐烦，只是由心而外的感到温暖。
　　“下次再把衣服给我我就给你扔掉！”
　　“好好好，都听你的。”
　　“哈哈哈哈哈。”常温终于忍不住了。
　　“诶，好你个常温还在这幸灾乐祸，告诉你，等你好了你得请我们吃饭啊，赖账都不好使。”
　　“当然没问题。”
　　“哥哥，喝粥。”林林端着碗把勺递到常温嘴边。
　　“诶我说常温，你病的是胃不是手吧，怎么还让小孩喂，你不会是…欺负人家吧？”夏安开着玩笑。
　　“哥哥才没有欺负我的，哥哥对我很好，我喜欢哥哥。”林林红着脸替常温说话。
　　“开个玩笑咯。”
　　“别吓唬林林了，林林胆子小着呢。”
　　“我哪有吓唬他！”夏安打趣似的反驳。
　　“哥哥，你看，天亮了。”
　　四个人一起看向窗外，乌云散去，太阳升起，阳光大片大片的照进病房，温暖而耀眼，没错，一切都会变好的，一定会的。

　　（英文版指路）
　　Chapter VI

　　The sparse drops sounded on the ground, rippled far and near. The room temperature is as unavoidable as the tree in the rain curtain. The difference is that the tree seems to be given strength, and the leaves become transparent again, but the room temperature still can't become awake, only the body is stiffer and colder.

　　Gu wet his eyes and drenched all over his body. The yellowish street lamp also flowed with the windmarks.

　　"Brother, the operation is about to begin. Don't be afraid. The success rate of the operation is very hig□□ finish it."

　　"You look more scared than me." Laugh at room temperature.

　　Lin Lin was just about to say something, but he heard the doctor's rumour.

　　"Patients with bed 46 are ready for surgery."

　　"Wait for me, Lin Lin."

　　Lin Lin swallowed that sentence and only said one word.

　　-- "Okay."

　　Lin Lin watched the room temperature being pushed into the operating room. The moment the door closed, Lin Lin seemed to have been pulled out of all his strength, paralysed on the ground, clenched his fists tightly, and pinched the bleeding marks in the palm of his hand with his white fingertips. Brother, come on.

　　In the operating room, after the doctor gave anaesthesia, the room temperature slowly lost consciousness and was dizzy. At the room temperature, a fear suddenly rose. If the operation failed, what should Lin Lin do? Who will take care of him? But Chang Wen's heart suddenly sank. Anyway, it should not be a waste like me who needs children to take care of. I fell asleep at room temperature, probably because I took anaesthesia. The room temperature during the operation did not feel strange, but when I woke up, the feeling of nausea and vomiting became more obvious.

　　"Brother, you finally woke up. The doctor said the operation was very successful!"

　　Looking at Lin Lin at room temperature, Lin Lin's eyes dodged a little and lowered his head.

　　"Head up"

　　Lin Lin seemed to have heard of it. Changwen put his hand on Lin Lin's chin and gently raised his head.

　　With such red and swollen eyes, Chang Wen's heart stagnated and didn't say anything for a long time. It was not until Lin Lin gently turned away his head that Chang Wen said, "Don't cry, Lin Lin, don't cry for me."

　　Lin Lin's nose was sore, and tears almost fell again.

　　"Brother... I was very afraid just now. I'm so afraid that something will happen to you. I'm so afraid that you will leave me behind..." Lin Lin was a little incoherent. After a sentence, he sobbed intermittently, and tears finally burst.

　　Chang Wen didn't say anything, but hugged Lin Lin silently and said a shallow sentence in his ear.

　　"Lin Lin, don't be afraid in the future."

　　Outside the ward shrouded in night--

　　"Xia An, keep up quickly..." Gu Nianyuan said quietly.

　　Xia An looked at the secret Gu Nian wish and felt funny and helpless. Why did you obviously come to visit, but now... like a thief?

　　"Xia An, Gu Nian wishes, come in. I heard it so far away." Chang Wen couldn't help laughing and opening his mouth.

　　"Che, it's boring. I still want to surprise you." Gu Nianyuan simply didn't hide it and came in generously. Xia An also stepped into the ward.

　　"I won't inform you when you come."

　　"Can you still be called a surprise when it comes out?"

　　"We have been eavesdropping outside the door for a long time. I really can't bear to break such a warm scene. If I had known that we had come in late."

　　"By the way, how did you two come here?"

　　"I asked for leave. You're all like this. Why don't we have a look?"

　　"Look at you. Let's talk about it. When did we get together?"

　　"You can see this all. We still want to 'report our own family'. It didn't take long. We were together in the second semester of our junior year. Now we are in my senior year, almost half a year."

　　"That's good."

　　"Don't talk about me and New Year's wishes. Let's talk about yourself. This child looks only fifteen or sixteen years old. Are you quite changed?" Lin Lin couldn't help teasing. His little face blushed and quickly lowered his head.

　　"This child's name is Xu Lin. He is fifteen years old. Let's..." Speaking of this, Chang Wen paused for a moment and took a joking look at Lin Lin. The latter blushed and looked at him with big eyes.

　　"We are together."

　　Lin Lin blushed even more when he heard this and felt that she could bleed.

　　Xia An saw everything in her eyes and understood everything. There were only three words in her eyes at room temperature. I, I, all, understood.

　　"What can you eat after the operation? It seems that you can only drink porridge. Then I will buy some for you now. You can lie down first."

　　Without waiting for Chang Wen to reply, Xia An took Gu Nianyuan's hand and went out. Gu Nianyuan looked unknown.

　　"Brother, are those two brothers your friends?" Lin Lin opened his mouth.

　　"Well, we have known each other for several years, and we seldom see each other after graduation."

　　"I envy them so much."

　　"What are Lin Lin envious about?"

　　"They are so lucky that they can always be together."

　　"Lin Lin, as I said, I will always be by your side."

　　"Brother, you have to get better soon."

　　"Of course."

　　Lin Lin stood up and organised the sheets for room temperature, but suddenly stopped.

　　"Brother, it's raining."

　　At room temperature, he sat up straight and looked outside.

　　"Yes, it's raining. Lin Lin, I like rainy days very much. The small rain patters in many places. Looking from the distance from the window, there are only some blurred corridors left in the streets, buildings and pedestrians, so that many people can go home. Such a scene is quite warm.

　　"Brother, I've been thinking that if you were by my side on a rainy day, it wouldn't be too bad."

　　"I've always been by your side."

　　"My brother is well now that he is much more sunny."

　　Lin Lin's eyes are bright, really like stars.

　　"That's not right." Shake your head at room temperature.

　　With you with me, what's the reason for me to be decadent?

　　Lin Lin was very confused. Just as he wanted to ask why, Xia An's voice sounded outside the door.

　　"For room temperature, come and pick up the porridge. It's raining outside. I'll buy you a porridge. I'm wet with my annual wishes!"

　　Lin Lin hurried forward and took the porridge in his hand.

　　"You're really embarrassed like this. You've been poured into a drowned chicken."

　　Gu Nianyuan then entered the house. Unlike Xia Ang, he had an overcoat on his head, so he didn't look so embarrassed.

　　"Xia An! It's said that I don't need your coat. Why don't you give me a fortress? Do you have to catch a cold before you stop? If you are sick, you will squeeze into a hospital bed with Changwen. Quite a big person doesn't know that he feels sorry for himself.

　　"I'm in good physique. I'll get better after a cold for a few days. I feel sorry for you and I feel sorry for myself. Then I'd better feel sorry for you." Facing Gu Nian's nagging and complaining, Xia An did not feel impatient, but felt warm from the outside of her heart.

　　"Give me your clothes next time and I'll throw them away for you!"

　　"Okay, okay, it's up to you."

　　"Hahahahahaha." Normal temperature finally couldn't help it.

　　"Well, you are still gloating here at room temperature. I'll tell you that when you get better, you have to invite us to dinner. It's not easy to reconceivate."

　　"Of course it's no problem."

　　"Brother, drink porridge." Lin Lin took a bowl and handed the spoon to Changwen's mouth.

　　"Well, I said room temperature. You have a stomach or a hand. Why don't you let your child feed it? You won't bully others, are you?" Xia An was joking.

　　"My brother didn't bully me. My brother is very kind to me. I like my brother." Lin Lin blushed and spoke for Changwen.

　　"Just kidding."

　　"Don't scare Lin Lin. Lin Lin is timid."

　　"How can I scare him!" Xia An retorted like a joke.

　　"Brother, look, it's dawn."

　　The four of them looked out of the window together. The dark clouds dispersed, the sun rose, and the sunlight shone into the ward. It was warm and dazzling. Yes, everything will be fine. It will be sure.