《我与他的双向救赎》一叶知境

7、第七章 为什么要骗

　　2022年4月15日 多云

　　盛夏的光打在树叶上，在青石路上留下斑驳的光影。
　　清晨的空气让常温觉得舒畅，离开了沉闷的病房，他感到莫名的轻快。
　　“太好了，哥哥终于痊愈啦。”
　　“嗯，林林，辛苦你了。”
　　“哥哥，以后我们要互相照顾好久呢，不要谢谢。”
　　“好。”
　　好在一切都过去了，林林心里暖暖的，他不求什么，能平平安安稳稳当当的过日子，他就满足了。
　　两个人牵着手有一搭没一搭的聊着天，没过多久就到了家。
　　“哥哥，我们到家啦！”
　　“回家真好。”常温看着久违的温馨的家，不由得真心的感慨。
　　“哥哥想吃些什么？我去做。”
　　“别做了，林林，我有点累了，想去睡一觉，你也好好休息休息，这么多天，你受累了。”
　　“好，哥哥你去吧。”
　　胃癌折磨得常温有些消瘦，但他心态越来越好，本来是要死的，既然幸运的活了下来，那就好好珍惜所有的时光。他感觉他永远脱离了那压抑的感觉，一切都过去了。有林林
　　就好。他现在要做的，就是好好的睡一觉，这是新生活的开始。
　　常温醒来的时候已经傍晚了，残留的光照进卧室，温暖却不刺眼。他穿上拖鞋，闻到一阵饭菜的香味，走到厨房看到一个忙碌的身影，光照在徐林的侧脸，细腻的鼻尖沁出细密的汗珠，长睫的阴影映在那张认真的小脸上，纯净美好。只是做出来的成果…好像不太理想……
　　而徐林也注意到了门口的常温，脸有些烫。“哥哥，我看网上说这道菜对身体很好的，可是我没想到这么难做……”
　　常温感到了他的愧疚，安慰似的揉了揉他的脑袋，刚要说话，客厅的手机却不合时宜的响了起来，他说了句没关系的，就去接了电话。徐林看了看自己的“杰作”，赶紧把锅里的东西倒掉了。
　　电话被接起，对方不知道说了什么，常温的嘴角微微上扬，最后答应了一句。“好，我知道了。”
　　“林林，不要做了，收拾收拾出门了。”
　　徐林有点懵“哥哥，我们去哪？”
　　“请夏安和顾年愿吃饭。”

　　他们定在一家烤鱼店，店内布置并不高调，但处处都简洁明朗，让人心里止不住温暖。“常温，这次你出院，要更加注意身体啊。”
　　“嗯，这回我能多活几十年了。”常温打趣。
　　“年愿，待会你吃的时候小心点，别溅到衣服上。”夏安的口吻透着关心。
　　“这话应该我跟你说才对，吃饭嘴漏的习惯该改改了吧，还不如小孩呢。”顾年愿反驳道。
　　“提醒一下嘛，油滴到上面很难洗的。”
　　常温嘴角弯弯，自从父亲去世，他经常会想这样的场景，挚友和爱人陪在身边，温馨祥和。虽然……亲人不在了，但常温会永远惦记他们的。
　　“常温你还笑！”

　　他们在饭店里聊了很久，天也渐渐黑了下来，他们在路上道了别，借着路灯朦胧的光，常温牵着徐林散着步，不一会就到了家。
　　两人坐在沙发上，徐林忽然提议，
　　“哥哥，今天陪我看电视吧。”
　　“好啊。”
　　他们选择了新闻频道，常温的眉头在听见一则事件后无意识的皱了起来。
　　“知名女星安静坠楼自杀。”
　　“好端端的怎么会自杀？”
　　常温的疑惑并没有持续多久，因为家里来了一个解他惑的人——安静的助理。
　　“你来干什么？”
　　“我今天来就是想让你知道，你身边的小崽子都做了什么好事！”
　　“林林？林林怎么了？”常温并不相信她的话，可是…
　　“你自己看吧！”安静的助理粗暴的将一张纸塞进他的怀里。
　　“这是，遗书？”他的身体明显僵硬了一下。
　　他一字一句的看下去，纸角被他攥的皱巴巴的。

　　林林从卫生间出来的时候，常温正冷着脸坐在沙发上，一个眼神也没有给他。
　　“哥哥，刚刚谁来了？”
　　“你告诉我，安静是怎么死的。”
　　“我怎么知道。”林林虽然嘴硬，但眼里有一闪而过慌乱。
　　常温一言不发，那张纸被他拍在桌子上。
　　“哥哥…哥哥…你听我解释……”
　　“不仅安静，我爸也是被你逼死的，对吗。”常温出奇的平静，只是心里像被密密麻麻的针扎一样疼。
　　徐林眼神忽的执着，坚定的开口，
　　“对，是我，是我逼死了安静和常有年，可那又怎么样，他们本来就做错了事，常有年抛弃了你妈妈又吸了毒，可是，常温，你真的不知道我做这一切是为了谁吗！”
　　“如果你需要牺牲别人来为我好，那我希望，我从来都没好过。”
　　常温神情颓废，继续说到:“我不在意他们，他们的死我也不在意，就算他是我父亲我也不在意，可是林林，你骗了我，为什么瞒着我这么多东西。”
　　徐林双目通红，“常温，如果我不骗你，你会喜欢我吗。”
　　常温心里想的是原谅他，只要他说了实话，可是他还是说了狠话。
　　“不会，我不会允许恶毒的人留在我身边。”
　　徐林忽然笑了起来，“是啊，我做了这么多，你却只觉得我恶毒，我这么恶毒的人，连爱都是恶毒的。”
　　常温盯着他，一直没有说话，过了许久，他终于开口，“我们的关系就到这吧，你口中的爱，我受不起了。”
　　“好啊，那我也不留了，以后我也不会再来找你，我才不会像安静一样贱。”
　　徐林直了身子，头也不回的冲出了门。
　　常温险些没有站稳，他跌坐在沙发上，眼神缥缈，怔怔的坐了很久，他终于抬起手，狠狠的揉了揉眉心。
　　林林为什么要骗他，为什么不能坦诚相待，有什么话不能坐下来好好说，为什么一定要瞒着他。从始至终，他一直是被蒙在鼓里的那个。
　　可是，他没有忘了徐林的好，医院里尽心尽力的照顾，约定时说出口的情话，一起经历的日日夜夜，他确确实实动了心，他没有怪他逼死了安静和父亲，他只是…怪他没有和自己商量。
　　（英文版指路）
　　April 15, 2022 Cloudy

　　The midsummer light hit the leaves, leaving mottled light and shadow on the bluestone road.

　　The early morning air made Chang Wen feel comfortable. After leaving the dull ward, he felt inexplicably brisk.

　　"Great, my brother has finally recovered."

　　"Well, Lin Lin, thank you for your hard work."

　　"Brother, we will take care of each other for a long time in the future. Don't thank you."

　　"Okay."

　　Fortunately, everything is over, and Lin Lin's heart is warm. He is satisfied that he can live a safe, stable and stable life.

　　The two of them held hands and chatted with each other, and soon arrived home.

　　"Brother, we're home!"

　　"It's good to go home." Chang Wen looked at the warm home that he had not seen for a long time and couldn't help sighing sincerely.

　　"What would you like to eat, brother? I'll do it."

　　"Don't do it, Lin Lin. I'm a little tired. I want to sleep. You should also have a good rest. For so many days, you are tired."

　　"Okay, brother, go ahead."

　　Stomach cancer tortured normal temperature and a little was a little thin, but his mentality was getting better and better. He was going to die. Now that he survived luck, he cherished all his time. He felt that he had been free from that feeling of depression forever, and everything was over. There are forests.

　　That's good. What he has to do now is to have a good sleep. This is the beginning of a new life.

　　When normal temperature woke up, it was already evening, and the remaining light shone into the bedroom, warm but not dazzling. He put on slippers and smelled the fragrance of food. When he walked to the kitchen, he saw a busy figure, which shone on Xu Lin's side face. The delicate tip of his nose lit up with delicate sweat, and the shadow of long eyelashes reflected on the serious little face, pure and beautiful. It's just the result... It doesn't seem to be ideal...

　　Xu Lin also noticed the room temperature at the door, and his face was a little hot. Brother, I read on the Internet that this dish is good for my health, but I didn't expect it to be so difficult to cook..."

　　Chang Wen felt his guilt and rubbed his head like comfort. Just as he was about to speak, the mobile phone in the living room rang inappropriately. He said something that was okay, so he answered the phone. Xu Lin looked at his "masterpiece" and quickly poured out the pot.

　　The phone was picked up, and the other party didn't know what to say. The corners of Chang Wen's mouth raised slightly, and finally agreed. OK, I see."

　　"Lin Lin, don't do it. Pack up and go out."

　　Xu Lin was a little confused. "Brother, where are we going?"

　　"Please invite Xia An and Gu Nian to dinner."

　　They set up a grilled fish restaurant. The decoration in the shop was not high-profile, but it was concise and clear everywhere, which made people unable to stop warmth. Normal temperature, if you are discharged from the hospital this time, you should pay more attention to your health.

　　"Well, I can live for decades this time." Normal temperature teasing.

　　"Year's wish, be careful when you eat later and don't splash on your clothes." Xia An's tone was full of concern.

　　"I should tell you that. The habit of eating leaks should be changed. It's not as good as a child." Gu Nianyuan retorted.

　　"Letter, it's hard to wash oil on it."

　　Chang Wen's mouth is bent. Since his father passed away, he often thinks about such a scene. His best friend and lover are with him, warm and peaceful. Although... relatives are gone, Changwen will always miss them.

　　"Changwen, you still laugh!"

　　They chatted in the restaurant for a long time, and it was getting dark. They said goodbye on the road. Through the hazy light of the street lamp, Chang Wen led Xu Lin for a walk and soon arrived at home.

　　When the two sat on the sofa, Xu Lin suddenly proposed,

　　"Brother, watch TV with me today."

　　"Okay."

　　They chose the news channel, and Chang Wen frowned unconsciously after hearing an incident.

　　"Famous actress quietly fell off a building and committed suicide."

　　"How can a good one commit suicide?"

　　Chang Wen's doubts didn't last long, because there was a man who solved his puzzles at home - a quiet assistant.

　　"What are you doing here?"

　　"I'm here today to let you know what good things the kids around you have done!"

　　"Lin Lin? What's wrong with Lin Lin?" Chang Wen didn't believe her, but...

　　"Look at it yourself!" The quiet assistant roughly stuffed a piece of paper into his arms.

　　"Is this a suicide note?" His body is obviously stiff.

　　He looked down word by word, and the corners of the paper were wrinkled by him.

　　When Lin Lin came out of the bathroom, Chang Wen was sitting on the sofa with a cold face without giving him a look.

　　"Brother, who was here just now?"

　　"Tell me how Quiet died."

　　"How do I know?" Although Lin Lin's mouth was hard, there was a flash of panic in his eyes.

　　Chang Wen didn't say a word, and he patted the paper on the table.

　　"Brother...Brother...Listen to my explanation..."

　　"Not only quiet, but my father was forced to death by you, right?" The temperature is surprisingly calm, but my heart hurts like a tight needle.

　　Xu Lin's eyes suddenly focussed and opened his mouth firmly.

　　"Yes, it's me. I forced me to die of silence and perenniality, but so what? They have done something wrong in the first place. They abandoned your mother and took poison often. However, Chang Wen, do you really don't know who I did all this for!"

　　"If you need to sacrifice others for my own good, then I hope I have never been better."

　　Chang Wen looked decadent and continued, "I don't care about them, and I don't care about their death. Even if he is my father, I don't care, but Lin Lin, why did you hide so many things from me?"

　　Xu Lin's eyes turned red, "Chang Wen, would you like me if I didn't lie to you?"

　　Chang Wen thought to forgive him. As long as he told the truth, he still said cruel things.

　　"No, I won't allow vicious people to stay with me."

　　Xu Lin suddenly smiled, "Yes, I have done so much, but you only think I am vicious. I am such a vicious person, even love is vicious."

　　Chang Wen stared at him and never said anything. After a long time, he finally said, "That's all for our relationship. I can't stand the love in your mouth."

　　"Okay, I won't stay. I won't come to you again in the future. I won't be as cheap as quiet."

　　Xu Lin straightened up and rushed out of the door without looking back.

　　Chang Wen almost didn't stand firm. He fell on the sofa, his eyes were ethereal, and he sat in a long time. Finally, he raised his hand and rubbed his eyebrows fiercely.

　　Why did Lin Lin lie to him? Why can't she be honest with him? If there is anything, you can't sit down and say it well. Why do you have to hide it from him? From beginning to end, he has always been the one who has been kept in the dark.

　　However, he did not forget Xu Lin's goodness. He took good care of him wholeheartedly in the hospital, agreed love words, and experienced day and night together. He did not blame him for for forcing Jingjing and his father to death. □□... blamed him for not discussing with himself.