《疑心病》一叶知境

14、新婚快乐

　　"我们分手吧。"

　　那天的天气是怎么样的呢?

　　我记得，好像有太阳。

　　我曾经以为，七年之痒都是爱的还不够深，后来才想起来，再轰烈的爱情最终的走向都是平

　　他是一个热爱自由的人。

　　我将行李放到了后备箱，坐进了副驾驶系好安全带，我们没有一句交流。

　　可能是话早已说尽了吧，好像没什么可说的了。

　　他正准备发动引擎，我突然淡淡的开口。

　　"阳台上的绿植，你从来不管这些，回去以后把它们送给邻居吧，邻居是个喜欢植物的小姑娘，平常跟我也经常讨论这些，我养了四五年了，它们这么枯死了糟蹋了。"

　　"嗯。"

　　"小唯的猫粮快吃完了，你待会儿给它带一些回去。"

　　"嗯。"

　　"卫生间的水管坏了，我请了下午五点的维修师傅，你记得给人家开门。"

　　"嗯。"

　　我细细数着一件件琐碎的小事，他也难得的认真安静的听着，去机场这一路上大多是我在细数着。

　　不知说了多少，后来便也没话说了。

　　路上堵了车。

　　我看着车窗外，今天天气真好，

　　我喜欢有太阳的天气，他喜欢阴雨天。

　　大概这就是我们注定的结果。

　　迟早一拍两散。

　　也许是吧。

　　直到到了机场，我们也没有再说一句话。

　　我沉默着下了车，从后备箱拿出了行李箱，正准备进机场，却被他一把拉住了。

　　他神色复杂的看着我。

　　"真的，要分手吗?"

　　我看着他。

　　我们之间，不知道从什么时候起，被划开了一条无法横越的沟壑，不知道从什么时候起，把对方从自己心里逐步腾空，越走越远。

　　不知道从什么时候起，看向对方的眼睛里，只剩下了被束缚的无奈与复杂。

　　我扒开了他的手。

　　“那时候我们都太年轻，年少轻狂不知世事。"

　　我笑了笑。

　　"终归是要付出代价的。"

　　我按过他的后脑勺，在他唇上落下一吻。

　　好像只剩下了冰冷。

　　蜻蜓点水，一触即离。

　　"这一吻，送我们。"

　　我们相互对视着，就好像是他和我各自每次有人出差，都会有一个送别吻一样。

　　话也说完了，好像也没有再停留的理由了，我便拉着行李箱走了，没再回头。

　　他也没再挽留。

　　一如当年我和家里断了联系坚定的走向他一样，坚定的离开。

　　谁都没有回头。

　　也是。

　　我们本来都是要强的人。

　　"哥!!"

　　风尘仆仆的下了飞机，脚还没站稳，怀里先扑进来个人，接着小人儿就开始哇哇的哭。

　　我无奈的拍了拍胸口前的脑袋，麻木的心一时间软化开，温声道。

　　"囡囡乖，先放开哥哥好吗?"

　　谁知道小姑娘反而搂的更紧了。

　　"不要不要，我要是放手哥哥又一声不响的走了怎么办，呜呜呜."

　　我颇有些好笑的扒下几乎挂在我身上的妹妹，抽出了随身带的纸巾，擦过了妹妹的眼泪。

　　好了好了，哥哥不走了，看你哭的妆的花了，快擦擦。"

　　一听妆花了，小姑娘也不哭了，翻出随身带的小镜子就开始擦脸。

　　我看着忙忙慌慌的妹妹，一时好笑一时又感到心里暧暖的。

　　回去的路上妹妹一直拽着我叽叽喳喳说个不
　　停。

　　自从决定跟着林沉去了深圳，我就几乎和家里断了联系，除了每个月定时给家里打过去一笔钱，这一走就是七年。

　　我的父母对我喜欢的人是个男人这件事难以接受，林沉和我当初受过不少我父母的打骂和强行拆散，林沉问我要不要逃离这里，年少以为深情能战胜一切。

　　却不想，深情还是败给了时间，败给了现实。

　　我们都已经不再是一腔热血的少年了。

　　我看着讲的正起劲的小丫头，轻声问道

　　"爸妈他们，还好吗?"

　　丫头止住了话头，难得安静了一下。

　　"爸妈身体可好了，有我在，他们可健康了，跳
　　场舞的大爷大妈都不广场舞的大爷大妈都不一定比咱爸妈身体好一定比咱爸妈身体好呢。"

　　"哥，爸爸妈妈其实，早就看开了…"

　　小丫头说着，又有点哽咽了。

　　"哥，其实在你们走的第二年，爸爸妈妈就后悔了，他们说人生是你自己的，只要你能幸福，怎么走都该是你的事，可是你这一走就是七年，除了打钱回来，连一句话也没给他们说过，爸爸妈妈其实，其实很想你的。"

　　我张了张嘴，却好像被什么堵住了喉咙，说不出话。

　　妹妹红着眼睛，笑着说

　　"爸爸妈妈还说，只要你肯回来，怎样都好。"

　　"哥哥，欢迎回家。"

　　久违的，我红了眼眶。

　　恨自己自以为是，也恨当年傻的可以。

　　呆傻了七年也不曾看清，岁月唯一不会消磨的，是亲情。

　　回家以后，母亲惊喜而又不可置信的抱着我哭了很久，明明是我不孝，可她却不停的自贵当初对我太狠心。

　　母亲越是这样，我越发的觉着曾经的自己，错的离谱。

　　实在是太离谱了。

　　我的父亲，是个很要强的人，我的性子大抵是随了他，他看着我良久，最终只是拍了拍我的肩膀，轻声说了一句

　　"回来就好。"

　　便故作镇定的进了屋。

　　假若我不曾看到他微红的眼眶。

　　我没有提关于林沉的事，爸妈他们也没有过问。倒是我妹妹，兴致勃勃的拉着我给我介绍
　　人

　　"哥，哥，你看你看，你喜欢什么类型的，我这里联系方式应有尽有!职场精英还是奶狗鲜肉?"

　　看着妹妹那简直要冒星星的眼睛，我一时好笑。

　　"你个小丫头，脑子里想些什么乱七八糟的。"

　　我弹了她一个脑瓜崩，她捂着脑袋委屈的喊

　　"我都二十二了，不是小丫头了!还有我这不是为你好嘛，你看我连自己都没考虑，列表帅哥全给你准备的!!"

　　虽然父母早已经坦然接受我的性向，但我还是不可避免的下意识看向父母的身影。

　　父亲只是像往常一样看着带着眼镜看着报纸，喝着茶，而母亲则是在厨房忙碌，

　　我叹了口气，拍了拍妹妹的脑袋。

　　“囡囡还是自己留着吧，哥哥不需要。"

　　"阿浔，你妹妹也是想着你，你总不可能一直一个人不是，前几天囡囡跟我说的那个小季人就不错，又高又帅，主要是人还老实善良.….….

　　母亲不知道什么时候端着菜出来，，上来就是这么翻话，属实让我哭笑不得。

　　"我倒是觉得上次见过的小王人不错。"

　　沉默了半天的父亲也是突然冒出来这么句话，这下是让我有那么点毛骨悚然了。

　　看我妈还有搭腔的架势，我赶忙止住了话头。

　　"妈，我帮你吧?还有几个菜?"

　　妈妈有些不满我打断了她的话，接着说道

　　"阿浔，我说真的...

　　我赶忙推着妈妈进了厨房。

　　"好啦好啦妈，做饭，我们做饭吧，我饿了。"

　　倒也是难为他们，明明曾经那么厌恶，如今却还是为了我而去接受。

　　哭笑不得中，又觉得心里那么暖。

　　我没有再选择开启一段新的感情。

　　父母也没有再硬逼着我，倒是小囡囡每天都对给我介绍帅哥这件事乐此不疲。

　　由着她胡闹吧。

　　我带着父母还有小囡囡去了很多地方旅游，一家人难得的相处时光，我很珍惜这每一分每一秒。

　　好像这一生，这样也很好了。

　　爱情并不是人生的必须品。

　　小囡囡假期结束以后，我们也结束了旅游回到了家。

　　囡囡继续去上课，而我找了一份薪水很不错的工作，稳定了下来。日子明明平平淡淡，却总是觉得心里是满的。

　　至少这一刻，我觉得我比任何人都要幸福。

　　我以为我和林沉再也不会联系了。

　　直到六年以后，我收到了他的婚礼请柬。

　　“揪.….…揪.....

　　我正看着手机消息，完全没注意到小团子爬到我脚边了，直到他抓住我的裤脚，我才反应过来，弯腰将他抱起。

　　囡大四的时候谈了个男朋友，男方人很好，最终确定了结婚，婚后过得也确实幸福，小团子今年三岁了。

　　囡囡和她丈夫俩口子平时忙，小团子时不时就是我这个闲人和爸妈一起带。

　　小家伙也亲近我，我倒也乐在其中。

　　我看着小家伙，小家伙乐的正开心，也不知道乐些什么，我戳了戳那嫩生生的小脸，心里一片柔软。

　　“小诺诺，我们出去玩好不好呀?"

　　那双娇嫩的小手握住我一根手指，水灵的大眼睛懵懂的望着我。

　　爸妈出去逛街了，我随便收拾了一下，便带着小团子出了门。

　　我倒是不知道林沉什么时候也回了这里，还在这里办婚礼。

　　婚礼倒是办的挺大，我找了个不起眼的角落就坐下了。

　　人挺多的，我还是很快找到了林沉。

　　我们都是三十四五的人了，但他依旧风采不减当年。

　　“揪.....揪.....

　　察觉到小诺诺抓了抓我的衣服，我低下头笑着问道。

　　“怎么啦诺诺，无聊了?"

　　小家伙抓着我的手指，一直不松手。

　　软软的，好暖。

　　婚礼开始了。

　　新娘真漂亮。

　　.....

　　“肖浔。"

　　我抱着睡的正香的小团子正准备回家，突然被
　　人叫住，我转头，看到了新郎打扮的林沉，我
　　礼貌的笑了笑。

　　“好久不见。"

　　林沉看到了我怀里的小团子，轻声说道

　　“这些年，还好吧?"

　　我点了点头。

　　“还行，挺好的。"

　　语罢，我们两人都陷入了沉默。

　　时隔多年再次相见，却仍旧是无话可说。

　　我不由得叹了口气，而后笑到。

　　“新婚快乐，林沉。"

　　他看着我，点了点头。
　　（英文版指路）
　　"Let's break up."

　　What was the weather like that day?

　　I remember, it seems that there is a sun.

　　I used to think that seven years of itch is not deep enough for love, but later I remembered that no matter how vigourous love is, the ultimate direction is flat.

　　He is a person who loves freedom.

　　I put my luggage in the trunk and sat in the co-pilot and fastened my seat belt. We didn't communicate.

　　Maybe it's already over. There seems to be nothing to say.

　　He was about to start the engine when I suddenly opened faintly.

　　"Green plants on the balcony, you never care about them. Give them to your neighbours when you go back. The neighbour is a little girl who likes plants. You usually discuss these with me often. I have raised them for four or five years, and they are so dead."

　　"Uh-huh."

　　"Xiao Wei's cat food is running out. Bring it back later."

　　"Uh-huh."

　　"The pipe in the bathroom is broken. I hired a repairman at 5:00 p.m. Remember to open the door."

　　"Uh-huh."

　　I scrutinised trivial things, and he rarely listened carefully and quietly. Most of the way to the airport was me counting carefully.

　　I don't know how much I said, but then I didn't say anything.

　　There is a traffic jam on the road.

　　I looked out of the window of the car. It was a nice day today.

　　I like sunny weather, and he likes cloudy and rainy days.

　　Probably this is what we are destined to be.

　　Beat twice sooner or later.

　　Maybe so.

　　We didn't say a word until we arrived at the airport.

　　I got out of the car silently, took out my suitcase from the trunk, and was about to enter the airport when he was stopped.

　　He looked at me with a complicated look.

　　"Really, do you want to break up?"

　　I looked at him.

　　Between us, we don't know when we have been drawn an insurmountable gully, and we don't know when we will gradually take the other party out of our hearts and go further and further.

　　I don't know when to look into each other's eyes, there is only bound helplessness and complexity.

　　I opened his hand.

　　"At that time, we were all too young to be young and frivolous and didn't know the world."

　　I smiled.

　　"There will be a price in the end."

　　I pressed his back of the head and kissed him on the lips.

　　It seems that only the cold is left.

　　The dragonfly lit the water and left at one touch.

　　"Send us this kiss."

　　We looked at each other as if he and I had a farewell kiss every time someone and I were on a business trip.

　　That's all. It seems that there is no reason to stay any longer, so I left with my suitcase and didn't look back.

　　He didn't keep him any more.

　　Just as I broke off contact with my family and walked to him firmly, I left firmly.

　　No one turned back.

　　That's right.

　　We are all strong people.

　　"Brother!!"

　　The wind and dust got off the plane. Before his feet stood firm, a person jumped into his arms first, and then the villain began to cry.

　　I patted my head helplessly in front of my chest, and my numb heart softened for a moment and warmed my voice.

　　"Good girl, can you let my brother go first?"

　　Who knew that the little girl hugged her tighter instead.

　　"No, what if I let go of my brother and leave silently again, woo-hoo."

　　I took off my sister almost hanging on me with some funnyness, pulled out the tissues I carried with me, and wiped my sister's tears.

　　All right, all right, brother won't go. Look at the colourful makeup you cry. Wipe it quickly."

　　As soon as she heard the makeup, the little girl didn't cry. She turned out the small mirror she took with her and began to wipe her face.

　　I looked at my busy sister, which was funny for a while and felt warm.

　　On the way back, my sister kept twittering me and saying no.

　　Stop.

　　Since I decided to follow Lin Chen to Shenzhen, I have almost cut off contact with my family. Except for the regular transfer of money to my family every month, this trip is seven years.

　　It is difficult for my parents to accept that the person I like is a man. Lin Chen and I have been beaten, scolded and forcibly separated by my parents at the beginning. Lin Chen asked me if I wanted to escape here. When I was young, I thought that affection could overcome everything.

　　But I don't want to be affectionate or lost time and reality.

　　We are no longer hot-blooded teenagers.

　　I looked at the cheerful little girl and asked softly.

　　"Mom and Dad, how are you?"

　　The girl stopped talking and rarely quieted down.

　　"My parents are in good health. With me, they are healthy. Jump.

　　Uncles and aunts who dance in squares are not necessarily better than our parents."

　　"Brother, mom and dad have actually seen it for a long time..."

　　The little girl said, choking a little again.

　　"Brother, in fact, in the second year you left, my parents regretted it. They said that life was your own. As long as you were happy, it would be your business no matter how you walked, but your trip was seven years. In addition to paying back, you didn't even say a word to them. Mom and Dad actually miss you very much."

　　I opened my mouth, but I seemed to be stuck in my throat and speechless.

　　My sister blushed and said with a smile

　　"Mom and Dad also said that everything would be fine as long as you were willing to come back."

　　"Brother, welcome home."

　　I haven't seen it for a long time. My eyes are red.

　　Hate yourself for being self-righteous, and hate those who were stupid in those years.

　　After being stupid for seven years, I haven't seen it clearly. The only thing that time will not fade is family affection.

　　After returning home, my mother hugged me in surprise and incrediblely and cried for a long time. Obviously, I was not filial, but she kept being too cruel to me at the beginning.

　　The more my mother is like this, the more I realise that I used to be wrong.

　　It's really ridiculous.

　　My father is a very strong man. I mostly follow him. He looked at me for a long time, and finally patted me on the shoulder and whispered.

　　"As long as you come back."

　　So he pretended to be calm and entered the house.

　　If I hadn't seen his slightly red eyes.

　　I didn't mention anything about Lin Chen, and my parents didn't ask about it. It's my sister who introduced me to me with great interest.

　　Person

　　"Brother, brother, look, what type do you like? I have all kinds of contact information here! Workplace elite or puppy fresh meat?

　　Looking at my sister's starry eyes, I laughed for a moment.

　　"You little girl, what's wrong with your mind?"

　　I broke her head. She covered her head and shouted aggrievedly.

　　"I'm twenty-two years old. I'm not a little girl anymore! And I'm not for your own good. Look, I didn't even think about myself. The list of handsome guys has been prepared for you!!"

　　Although my parents have long accepted my sexual orientation calmly, I still inevitably subconsciously look at my parents.

　　My father just looked at the newspaper with glasses and drank tea as usual, while his mother was busy in the kitchen.

　　I sighed and patted my sister on the head.

　　"You'd better keep it yourself. My brother doesn't need it."

　　"A Xun, your sister also misses you. You can't always be alone. The Xiaoji person Nannan told me a few days ago is good, tall and handsome, mainly because he is that he is honest and kind. .... ....

　　My mother didn't know when to bring the vegetables out. That's how she came up to me, which really made me laugh or cry.

　　"I think the little king I saw last time is good."

　　My father, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly came up with such a sentence, which made me a little creepy.

　　Seeing my mother's aggressive posture, I quickly stopped talking.

　　"Mom, can I help you? How many other dishes are there?"

　　Mom was a little dissatisfied. I interrupted her and continued.

　　"A Xun, I'm serious...

　　I hurriedly pushed my mother into the kitchen.

　　"Okay, okay, Mom, cook. Let's cook. I'm hungry."

　　It's hard for them. Obviously, they used to hate it so much, but now they still accept it for me.

　　I couldn't like crying or laughing, and I felt so warm in my heart.

　　I didn't choose to start a new relationship.

　　My parents didn't force me anymore, but Xiao Nannan was very happy to introduce me to handsome men every day.

　　Let her fool around.

　　I took my parents and little girl to many places to travel. The family rarely spends time with each other. I cherish every minute and every second.

　　It seems that this life is also very good.

　　Love is not a must in life.

　　After the holiday, we also ended our trip home.

　　Nannan continued to go to class, and I found a job with a good salary and stabilised. The days are plain, but I always feel full.

　　At least for this moment, I feel happier than anyone else.

　　I thought Lin Chen and I would never get in touch again.

　　Six years later, I received his wedding invitation.

　　"Her. .... ... pull.....

　　I was looking at the mobile phone message and didn't notice Xiao Tuanzi climbing to my feet at all. It was not until he grabbed the foot of my trousers that I realised and bent down to pick him up.

　　When I was a senior, I had a boyfriend. The man was very nice. He finally decided to get married. He really had a happy life after marriage. Xiao Tuanzi is three years old this year.

　　Nannan and her husband are usually busy, and Xiaotuanzi is taken care of me from time to time with my idler and my parents.

　　The little guy is also close to me, and I enjoy it.

　　I looked at the little guy. The little guy was happy and didn't know what to be happy. I poked the tender little face, and his heart was soft.

　　"Little Nono, shall we go out to play?"

　　The delicate little hands held one of my fingers, and Shuiling's big eyes looked at me ignorantly.

　　My parents went shopping. I packed up casually and went out with a small ball.

　　I don't know when Lin Chen returned here and was still holding a wedding here.

　　The wedding was quite organised. I found an inconspicuous corner and sat down.

　　There are a lot of people, but I still found Lin Chen quickly.

　　We are all thirty-four five people, but his demeanour is still the same as that of the past.

　　"Hand..... Pull.....

　　I realised that Little Nono grabbed my clothes, I lowered my head and asked with a smile.

　　"What's wrong with Nono? Are you bored?"

　　The little guy grabbed my finger and never let go.

　　Soft and so warm.

　　The wedding has begun.

　　The bride is so beautiful.

　　.....

　　"Xiao Xun."

　　I was about to go home with the sleeping fragrant ball when I was suddenly

　　Stop it. I turned my head. I saw Lin Chen dressed up by the groom, I

　　I smiled politely.

　　"Long time no see."

　　Lin Chen saw the small ball in my arms and whispered.

　　"How have you been these years?"

　　I nodded.

　　"It's okay. It's good."

　　After saying that, both of us fell silent.

　　We met again after many years, but we still had nothing to say.

　　I couldn't help sighing, and then laughed.

　　"Happy wedding, Lin Chen."

　　He looked at me and nodded.