《首辅之妻中英对照版》KaylieLiu

94、第 94 章 Chapt

　　Chapter 94: Meeting Again
　　Why do you make me…
　　为什么让我……
　　No, I can't think about him anymore. It's useless to think about someone who's not mine. Why bother tormenting myself?
　　不，我不能再去想他，不是我的人想也无用，何苦折腾我自己？
　　For months, I didn't dare to inquire about the Prime Minister's Mansion or mention Yu Yujun.
　　几个月来我不敢过问相府的消息，不敢提到玉雨均这个人。
　　Like a dual mesh of silk, the heart holds countless intricate knots.
　　心似双丝网，中有千千结。
　　Something cannot be split or torn.
　　剪不断，理还乱。
　　I want to end our relationship, but it's too complicated.
　　情丝纠结难解脱，声声叹息怨愁多。
　　The cowherd star and the weaving maiden by the riverbed are very far away.
　　迢迢牵牛星，皎皎河汉女。
　　Her fingers are so thin, and she plays the music of her shuttle with each click.
　　纤纤擢素手，札札弄机杼。
　　She weaves all day, never finishing a web;her tears fall one by one like rain.
　　终日不成章，泣涕零如雨。
　　Heaven's river is clean and shallow;the distance between the two stars, where brimful waves arise, is short.
　　河汉清且浅，相去复几许。
　　They gaze yet are unable to reveal their emotions.
　　盈盈一水间，脉脉不得语。
　　Life is like a dream. It's not a full moon. People can't be reunited.
　　浮生若梦，月缺人难圆！
　　But today, as I turned around, there he was—Yu Yujun—again appearing before me.
　　可是今日就这么一转身，他--玉雨均又出现在我的面前。
　　Was it a dream or an illusion?
　　是梦，还是幻？
　　Tears blurred my vision. I thought my tears had dried up during my childhood, but there are still so many now.
　　泪水淋湿了双眼，我以为我的泪水早就在幼年时就流干了，没有想到现在还有那么多的泪。
　　We couldn’t talk when we met. Tears were flowing down our cheeks.
　　相顾无言，唯有泪千行。
　　"Qianqian, "he took one step at a time towards me, caressing my tear-stained face. Without a word, we gazed into each other's eyes.
　　“芊芊”他一步一步朝我走来，抚摸着我满脸是泪的脸。不语，我们就这样相视相望着。
　　"Qianqian, I have severed ties with my parents, and now I have no money or family to rely on. Will you marry me? "
　　”芊芊，我已经和父母断绝关系，如今身无分文，无人可依，你可愿意嫁给我为妻？”
　　I laughed. Yu Yujun, dressed in plain clothes, penniless, with no parents, only a heart full of love for me.
　　我笑了，布衣玉雨均，身无分文，无父无母，只有一颗爱我的心。
　　Tears streaming down, I nod, and he embraces me tightly.
　　我哭着点点头，然后他把我拥入怀中。
　　Life is an ever-changing journey, where the shifting environment can shape one's thoughts and fixations. Perhaps people may perceive me as contradictory, absurd, and challenging to understand.
　　人生变幻莫测，周围环境的变化也会影响一个人的想法和执念。或许世人会觉得我很矛盾、可笑，难以理解。
　　I had once pushed him away, not just once but numerous times, maintaining a distance of thousands of miles between us, persistently rejecting his advances.
　　我曾经把他拒于千里之外，并且不止一次，是无数次的拒绝。
　　However, here I am, unhesitatingly embracing a love resembling a moth drawn to a flame. It's a love that keeps me on edge, aware that separation could occur at any moment. I question myself, why am I acting so irrationally? I have always considered myself highly rational, yet this decision defies all logic.
　　但如今，我却毫不犹豫地选择了这个飞蛾扑火的爱情，一个让我时时胆战心惊、随时可能劳燕分飞的爱情。我自问：为什么如此不理智？我本以为自己是一个十分理性的人，但这个决定却出乎意料地不理性。
　　Despite my experiences and best efforts to be cool-headed and reasonable, it's possible that I am merely a simple mortal born into the ordinary world, prone to needs and desires.
　　也许无论我有着怎么样的经历，有着多么理智清晰的头脑，可是我终究还是一个凡人，生于俗世中，就会有欲望和欲念。