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第三章 向好的方向发展
清晨，一轮橘红色的太阳从地平线缓缓升起，给笼罩的氤氲迷雾大地涂抹上了一层霞光，浓重的白霜盖住了草丛，田垛，菜蔬。这黄灿灿的光亮驱散了雾障爽凝朦胧的早晨，龙如穴居久了的生灵凝聚的血液又活跃了起来。
常温点了支烟，两眼放空的坐在沙发上吐着烟雾，今天他要去医院检查，虽然在他心理早就想要放弃治疗了，但他还是想定期过去检查才好，哪怕自己的人生已经糟糕的像一团烂了的毛线，不对，或许还称不上是毛线，总之就是烂透了。但那又怎样？没人会和自己的命过不去。
常温吐完最后一口烟，随后把烟头插进烟灰缸里，他转头看向林林，“林林，我今天要去医院看病，你自己在家待着好不好？”
“看病？哥哥你得了什么病啊？严重吗？”徐林的样子十分着急。
常温不想告诉他真相，但也不想骗他，“没事，不严重，你好好在家待着就行。”
“不行，我要跟你一起去，什么叫不严重？连什么病都不告诉我，我才不信呢。”徐林的语气还是十分担心。
常温并不想带他去，那样的话胃癌的事情就暴露了，不过看他这反应，不带去也不行了，“那好吧。”常温突然想起来还要带他去看心理医生，那正好，看完病就去吧。
来到医院后，肠胃科的医生看着常温，无奈的说:“先生，希望您尽早接受治疗，早期胃癌本身肿瘤较小，并且没有发生扩散转移，这个时候采取手术治疗，无疑可以改善胃癌的情况，甚至可以达到根治的目的。”
常温不是没有想过住院，但是，他住院了徐林怎么办？
“那住院大概需要住多久？”常温紧接着问。
“胃癌早期的话，具体住院住多久都是不一定的，根据病人的情况来看，还要看具体的治疗方案，最好是及时配合医生的治疗，一般情况两周是比较快的了，肠道功能需要慢慢恢复，而且消化道的重建也需要慢慢适应。”
医生看着常温迟迟不肯回应，便继续嘱咐道，“胃癌患者胃消化、吸收，蠕动以及碾碎食物的功能比较差，主张进食易消化、少渣的食物。避免进食蚕豆等质地较硬的食物，它可能会影响消化功能。胃部肿瘤由于血管较丰富，可能会出现破溃、出血，应尽量避免进食玉米、芹菜等粗纤维的食物。建议胃癌患者平时清淡饮食，多吃高蛋白、高热量、高维生素的食物来补充机体的需要。不要吃辛辣、刺激的食物，也不要吃过甜、过酸或高盐的腌制食物，以免导致对胃黏膜的损伤。要避免暴饮暴食，尤其不要吸烟和饮酒。少食多餐，保持良好的情绪避免情绪波动。”
“哦，行，我知道了。”常温有些失落，因为不能吸烟了，那样会很难受的。
“那先生你什么时候打算住院治疗？早点治疗吧，要是拖到晚期就不好了，你旁边的小朋友也不希望你一直拖下去。”
“我再考虑考虑吧。”常温刚说完，一旁本来脸色就很差的徐林似乎一下子就爆发了。
“考虑？这还用考虑吗？癌症这种东西，不治会死的！”
常温顿时有些不知所措，徐林第一次冲他发火，他不知道是惊讶还是害怕。
“还请慎重考虑自己的生命，别拖太久。”医生劝了一句。
见徐林还在生气，常温赶紧摸了摸他的头，“好了好了，我又没说不治了，而且我也是为你着想啊，我要是住院了，就没人照顾你了。”
徐林生气的眼神里一下子变得难过了起来，“可是你有没有想过如果你不治疗严重了，那我以后就真的没有人照顾了，你不能离开我，难道你忍心让我去孤儿院吗？”
常温仔细一想，好像还真是这样，如果我不趁早住院接受治疗，那林林就真的没人照顾了。
“怎么会呢？我一定治，到时候健健康康的陪着林林好不好？”
“嗯，好。”徐林抹了抹眼泪冲着常温笑了笑。
离开医院后，常温带着徐林去看了心理医生。
“你有什么问题？”心理医生问道。
“我的东西或者人都不喜欢分享给别人，看到别人动我的东西或者人都很想抢回来。如果有人喜欢我的人就很想给那个人点教训，讨好我的人，在我的人面前撒娇、哭告诉他自己很可怜，把他骗回来，既然都骗了，不妨骗的更深一点，说白了，抢我的东西，喜欢我的人，弄死他就好了啊。”徐林的表情明显变得奇怪。
徐林说的这些让常温有点惊讶，这并不像他的风格，但是他毕竟是在泥潭里长大的孩子，缺乏安全感，这些都挺正常的，再说了他又没干过这些。
“你要学会分享，分享其实是件很快乐的事。”看得出，医生听到林林的话微微的颤抖了一下，像是恐惧。
“可是我的人我并不想和别人分享。”说着，林林笑着回过头看了看常温。
“为什么呢？”看得出医生的额头上蒙着一层冷汗。
“因为我的家境不好，父母都不要我了，小时候过的也不好，所以不喜欢别人纠缠我的人，想让那个人一直陪在我身边……”
听了这句话，常温似乎已经忘记了刚刚徐林可怕的表情，他摸了摸他的脑袋安慰他。
心理医生了开导了会儿徐林，随后道：“这是因为小时候的影响，不是什么心理疾病。”
常温听了这话很放心，医生的意思大概就是徐林小时候受了不少苦，所以现在才会受影响，这让常温觉得徐林十分可怜，所以他当时就决定要好好对徐林，至少不能再让他受苦了。
从心理医生那里出来之后，常温想了很久，他和徐林认识了没多久，居然还不知道他喜欢吃什么，喜欢干什么，他很内疚，既然这样的话，那干脆就带着他出去玩吧，说不定可以更了解他。
“林林，我们明天出去玩好不好？”常温对着徐林笑了笑。
“哥哥怎么突然想起要带我出去玩啊？”徐林抬起头露出他那张可爱的脸。
“因为哥哥想对你好啊，你要是不想去的话，那我也就不勉强了。”
“去，怎么可能不去呢？哥哥带我出去，我高兴都来不及，怎么可能不想？”说着就拽着常温的胳膊冲着他笑。
常温摸着他的脸，“那好，我们明天就去。”
常温好久都没这么开心了，他十分庆幸能遇到徐林，对于他而言，徐林就像是一束温暖的阳光照进他原本糟糕的人生，现在常温的生活似乎在向好的方向发展，对于常温而言，有徐林就够了，原本他也没奢求过什么。
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Chapter III Developing in a Good Direction
In the early morning, an orange-red sun slowly rose from the horizon, spreading a layer of glow on the foggy earth, and thick white frost covered the grass, field stacks and vegetables. This yellow light dispelled the cool and vague morning of the fog barrier, and the blood condensed by Long Ru's long-standing creatures became active again.
He lit a cigarette at room temperature and sat on the sofa empty with smoke. Today, he was going to the hospital for a check-up. Although he wanted to give up treatment for a long time in his mind, he still wanted to go there for a regular examination. Even if his life was bad like a rotten wool. No, it may not be called woollen. In short, It sucks. But so what? No one will have trouble with their own lives.
Chang Wen spit out his last mouthful of cigarettes, then put the cigarette butt into the ashtray. He turned his head and looked at Lin Lin, "Lin, I'm going to the hospital today. Can you stay at home by yourself?"
"See a doctor? Brother, what's wrong with you? Is it serious?" Xu Lin looked very anxious.
Chang Wen didn't want to tell him the truth, but he didn't want to lie to him. "It's okay. It's not serious. Just stay at home."
"No, I want to go with you. What does it mean to be serious? I don't even tell me anything. I don't believe it. Xu Lin's tone is still very worried.
Chang Wen didn't want to take him there. In that case, the stomach cancer would be exposed, but depending on his reaction, he couldn't take it away. "That's all right." Chang Wen suddenly remembered that he had to take him to see a psychologist. That's right. Go after seeing a doctor.
After arriving at the hospital, the gastroenterologist looked at the room temperature and said helplessly, "Sir, I hope you can receive treatment as soon as possible. The tumour of the early gastric cancer itself is relatively small and there is no diffusion and metastasis. At this time, surgical treatment can undoubtedly improve the situation of gastric cancer, and even achieve radical cure."
It's not that Chang Wen hasn't thought about being hospitalised, but what should Xu Lin do if he is hospitalised?
"How long does it take to stay in the hospitalisation?" Normal temperature immediately asked.
"In the early stage of gastric cancer, it is not certain to be hospitalised for a long time. According to the patient's situation, it also depends on the specific treatment plan. It is best to cooperate with the doctor's treatment in time. Generally speaking, two weeks are relatively fast. Intestinal function needs to recover slowly, and the reconstruction of the digestive tract also needs to be slowly adapted."
Seeing that the room temperature was slow to respond, the doctor continued to tell, "The stomach cancer patients have poor functions in gastric digestion, absorption, peristalsis and crushing food, and advocate eating foods that are easy to digest and have less residue. Avoid eating hard foods such as broad beans, which may affect digestive function. Due to the abundance of blood vessels, stomach tumours may cause rupture and bleeding. We should try to avoid eating coarse fibre foods such as corn and celery. It is recommended that patients with gastric cancer eat a light diet and eat more high-protein, high-calorie and high-vitamin foods to supplement the needs of the body. Don't eat spicy and stimulating food, and don't eat sweet, too sour or high-salt pickled food, so as not to cause damage to the gastric mucosa. Avoid overeating, especially smoking and drinking. Eat less and eat more, keep a good mood and avoid mood swings.
"Oh, okay, I know." The room temperature is a little lost, because you can't smoke anymore, which will be very uncomfortable.
"So sir, when are you going to be hospitalised? Treat it early. It's not good to delay it to the end. The children next to you don't want you to procrastinate all the time.
"I'll think about it again." As soon as Chang Wen finished speaking, Xu Lin, who had a bad face, seemed to explode at once.
"Consideration? Do you still need to consider this? Cancer will die if it doesn't cure it!"
Chang Wen suddenly was a little overwhelmed. Xu Lin was angry with him for the first time. He didn't know whether he was surprised or afraid.
"Please also carefully consider your life and don't procrastinate too long." The doctor persuaded.
Seeing that Xu Lin was still angry, Chang Wen quickly touched his head, "Okay, I didn't say I couldn't cur, and I was also thinking about you. If I were hospitalised, no one would take care of you."
Xu Lin suddenly became sad in his angry eyes, "But have you ever thought that if you don't treat it seriously, I will really have no one to take care of me in the future. You can't leave me. Do you have the heart to let me go to the orphanage?"
Chang Wen thought about it carefully. It seems that it's true. If I don't be hospitalised as soon as possible, Lin Lin will really have no one to take care of him.
"How come? I will definitely cure it. Can I accompany Lin Lin healthily at that time?
"Well, okay." Xu Lin wiped his tears and smiled at Changwen.
After leaving the hospital, Chang Wen took Xu Lin to see a psychologist.
"What's wrong with you?" The psychologist asked.
"My things or people don't like to share with others. Seeing others touching my things or people want to get them back. If someone likes me, they really want to teach that person a lesson, please my people, act coquettish in front of my people, cry and tell him that they are pitiful, and cheat him back. Now that they have cheated, you might as well cheat deeper. To put it bluntly, grab my things, and kill the people who like me. Xu Lin's expression obviously became strange.
What Xu Lin said surprised Changwen a little. It was not like his style, but after all, he grew up in the quagmire and felt insecure. It's normal. Besides, he has never done this.
"You have to learn to share. Sharing is actually a very happy thing." It can be seen that the doctor trembled slightly when he heard Lin Lin's words, like fear.
"But I don't want to share my people with others." With that, Lin Lin looked back at the normal temperature with a smile.
"Why?" It can be seen that there is a cold sweat on the doctor's forehead.
"Because my family is not good, my parents don't want me, and I don't live well when I was a child, so I don't like the people who are pestering me. I want that person to be with me all the time..."
After listening to this sentence, Chang Wen seemed to have forgotten Xu Lin's terrible expression just now. He touched his head to comfort him.
The psychologist enlightened Xu Lin for a while, and then said, "This is because of the influence of childhood. It's not a mental illness."
Chang Wen was very relieved after hearing this. The doctor's meaning was that Xu Lin suffered a lot when he was a child, so it was only affected now. This made Chang Wen feel that Xu Lin was very pitiful, so he decided to treat Xu Lin well at that time, at least he could no longer suffer.
After coming out of the psychologist, Chang Wen thought for a long time. He and Xu Lin had not known each other for a long time. Unexpectedly, he didn't know what he liked to eat and what he liked to do. He felt very guilty. In that case, let's just take him out to play. Maybe he could know him better.
"Lin Lin, shall we go out tomorrow?" Chang Wen smiled at Xu Lin.
"Why did my brother suddenly think of taking me out to play?" Xu Lin raised his head to reveal his lovely face.
"Because my brother wants to treat you well. If you don't want to go, I won't force myself."
"Go, how can you not go? My brother took me out. It's too late for me to be happy. How can I not think about it? With that, he pulled Changwen's arm and smiled at him.
Chang Wen touched his face and said, "Okay, we'll go tomorrow."
Changwen hasn't been so happy for a long time. He is very glad to meet Xu Lin. For him, Xu Lin is like a warm sunshine shining into his originally bad life. Now Changwen's life seems to be developing in a good direction. For Changwen, Xu Lin is enough. Originally, he didn't expect anything.
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第3章 向好的方向发展
