《[HP]Thirty-Five Owls》言茗

5、04.08.1952

　　亲爱的盖勒特：

　　我知道于我而言等你主动联络我会比较好。我恐怕自己正处在一个不利的位置——纽蒙迦德差不多完全在摄神取念的范围之外。现在我只能猜测着选择最合适的方式来接触你。
　　我记得我们一起的那几周里你生闷气的情形。如果被冒犯，你就会突然起身离开，把自己和外界隔离开来，浑身笼着阴霾，然后再在几小时后若无其事地回来。我猜，几小时现在升级成几个月了？被孤立时的时间总会延伸得特别长，而相比你来说，我所感受到的已经很短暂了。而我说这个也并不是为了嘲笑你。我甚至觉得你闹脾气的时候很吸引人——你情感里那些带着野性的汹涌波动也是你魅力的一部分。
　　而我也知道我其实应该随你的便，可是我又无法允许自己放任你不管。我想这大概是我的失败之处之一吧，我是说，这种超出我自己范围的多管闲事。而现在，如果我们正面对面的话，我猜你大概要因为我这种嘲讽似的谦恭而厉声斥责我，然后转身就走……
　　我恳求你回头。是的。不是以一个著名巫师的身份，不是以霍格沃茨教授的身份，不是以任何我会在某方面感到骄傲的身份。只是作为一个普通人，因为当千帆过尽，我们也就不过是如此而已。你曾经管我这个老家伙叫作朋友。并且你还给我写信，大约只是出于想要有简单的连结——我只能这么猜测。我很高兴能这样，我现在所怀着得是最单纯的坦诚了。而你则保有所有冲我发火的权利。
　　我并不恨你。你可否说服自己相信它，然后在这件事上更公平些地评断我？你可以让自己不要继续恨我了吗？

　　致以问候，
　　阿不思·邓布利多

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　　[原文]

　　August 4th, 1952

　　Dear Gellert,

　　I know it would be better for me to wait for you to contact me. I'm afraid I'm at quite a disadvantage—Nurmengard is rather out of range for Legilimency. I can only guess at the best way to approach you now.

　　I remember your sulks, in those weeks we spent together. The way you'd leave abruptly if offended, cut yourself off, radiate darkness, come back a few hours later as if nothing was wrong. Hours have turned into months, I suppose？ Time in isolation can stretch so, and I have experienced it only briefly, compared to you. And I do not say this to mock you. I found even your sulks intriguing—your wild flights of emotion were part of your charm.

　　And I know it would be better for me to leave you to it, but I cannot bring myself to simply let you be. It is one of my failings, I suppose, the tendency to over-stretch myself and meddle. And now, were we face to face, I suppose you would snap at me for mock humility and leave...

　　I come begging back to you, yes. Not as a famous wizard, not as a Hogwarts Professor, not as anything in which I might have pride. Merely as a man, for that is all we are in the end. You once called this old man friend. And you wrote me seeking, I can only imagine, simple correspondence. I would like that very much. And I speak in plain honesty, and you have every right to be angry with me.

　　I do not hate you. Could you bring yourself to believe that, to judge me fairly for it? Could you bring yourself not to hate me？

　　Regards,
　　AD

作者有话说

　　老邓忍不住了（蜜汁微笑）
毕竟——“I do not hate you.”