《The Final Story》D. F. Lau

12、Chapter 102

　　But to his surprise, Rene really returned to him at the end of last year.
　　They fixed the time at night which was Jason’s private time.

　　“What drink do you wanna?” After saying hello to each other, Jason asked.
　　“As usual.” Rene smiled.
　　“And the old seat.” Jason replied.
　　Then Rene stood up and went to make the tea all by him as if they haven’t lost in touch for almost two years, it seems as if they just met last week.
　　Jason saw he sit down without asking him any questions just waiting for him speaking.
　　“I have been sleepless for a long time.” Rene opened his mouth” and I don’t want any sedative.”
　　Jason looked him up and down, finding him slimmer but better complexion than before.
　　“Now I seldom do field personnel, most of the time I stay in the office. Except for doing exercises, I seldom take actions. Maybe it is a cause, I guess.” Rene looked at him.
　　Jason as usual asked every detail about him.
　　“Rene, do you have girlfriend now?” He asked the last question,” Or, boyfriend?”
　　Rene leaning on the table beside like anyone seeing a doctor, took no action for this joke and smiled casually,” En, no…”
　　“How’s your frequency of sex life?” Jason finally asked the substance.
　　Rene was shocked for a while when Jason was staring at him.

　　“En, I had a girlfriend before, but three years ago she died.” Rene seemed unable to make up his mind and said:” It happened several months before last time my case.”
　　Jason was thunderstruck at this that he knew his case meant the case he took gun killing a suspect. But during such long time curing course, he never mentioned it except that he just brought out an absolute joke when they played chess.
　　And was it the exact reason he made that impulse?
　　While both of them realized that they were continuing the curing course two years ago.
　　“So, do you have any other…?”
　　“Just one, but she, she is married.” Rene hesitated.
　　The doctor was distracted.
　　“She lives in another state far way. We occasionally met each other, several months once. She came here or I went there, but in fact we talked a whole night sometimes.”
　　“We got acquainted before the other one actually speaking.” He cautiously looked at the doctor who nodded expressing understanding. “Is she elder than you?” Asked out of doctor’s own imagination.
　　“En, yes.” Rene answered nodding his head looking at the cup in his hand.
　　“ So, you asked me …” Rene moved away his view, and focused back on Jason’s question.
　　“I can not make it …everytime I would think of her.” Jason astonished to find that Rene had tears in his eyes but he bites his teeth and shut the opening mouth.
　　“…everytime at last I would run away when going into battle.” Rene calmed down and said” No matter dating with whom.”
　　“Are you telling me that you haven’t sexed with anyone in the latest two years?” Jason peacefully confirmed but still shocked indeed.
　　“That’s not absolutely, but seldom.” Rene raised his eyes,” OK, Almost like that!” Finally he gave up.”
　　“Listen, the best curing method is finding a person in the night and lie her on that big bed or being lay down on other’s bed!” Jason smiled thinking a hot body is the best way to cure sleeplessness.
　　“OK，I will have a try!” Rene smiled back and put down the cup.

　　“ Do you wanna a hypnotherapy?” Jason at last unexpectedly suggested.
　　“No.” Rene laughed and turned away from the door.
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　　“That was all I told him.” The doctor said with exclamation.
　　“In fact, he does not need a psychologist or a sex partner. You know that he purely need a …” Doctor again drank a little wine with the last word, “ Lover.”
　　He mentioned again the dinner they took together not long ago.
　　In the restaurant.
　　“Did you find the one?” Jason continued their last conversation topic.
　　Rene rose up and smiled, but did not answered the question directly,”Too bad, I found myself now is extremely cowardly.” He chopped the flesh in the plate.
　　“ I feel so nervous.” Rene stopped for a while, looking at Jason,” You know that I never feel nervous before.”
　　“?” Jason was shocked thinking Rene this time talked his own problem just to the point.
　　He looked back and saw some melancholy in the eyes.
　　“ But now I can feel my fear. To days ago, in front of that killer, for the first time from my birth I felt fear. I don’t wanna die!” Jason was staring at him.
　　“Much worse is that,” Rene put off the knife and fork with a sigh,” I even have things to worry. When she is not with me…” Jason knew that Rene by beating about the bush was using this way to answer his previous question that he had asked-------that means he found “the one”.
　　“Even when she left for a little while, she may just come to the petrol station (there is usually a small supermarket inside the petrol station), I would be worried about her.”
　　“I know it is silly.” Rene looked at him,” But I would feel quite fearful, extremely fearful, fear to lose her…”He did not continue telling.
　　“Rene, because of your ex-girlfriend ….”Jason stopped his own words.
　　“Yeah, maybe…”Rene nodded.
　　“I even started to secretly pray…every time she leaves hurriedly …I could not stop thinking to pray for her.”
　　“Do you believe in God?” Jason hesitated but still asked.
　　Rene didn’t answer only nodded his head once.
　　They bended heads eating some food.
　　“Or when she goes to work,” Rene re-opened his mouth,” I will feel so worried that I really want to make her change…” He almost let out the whole story and hurriedly ate a little, then changed his wording, “I almost intend to find her boss and make her change the position which can make her staying in the office. Or I even want make her not on job but I found her hanging around every where after that.”
　　He nearly slipped “he” out but got a pause in the middle, “it made me dammit fucking worried.”

　　Hearing this, Jason laughed out, “Is she much younger than you?”
　　Rene was taken aback, “Just OK.”
　　“What does she do? Often need to go around?”
　　“Ah…”Rene rushed to search for the salt on the table, “…..some sorts of journalist….I do not know.” He made out a job requiring for going around and hurry-up changed the topic.
　　Jason still stared at him knowing that he still didn’t tell the whole true story to him.
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　　“How can I tell you the whole case to you?” In Jason’s office, Anton hadn’t spoken for a while, seeing him like this, Jason stopped speaking.
　　“I just want to tell you that we had a dinner together after that killer case.” Doctor said,” How did I chat about cases on someone else?” Doctor looked into Anton’ eyes,”You are really good at explore.”
　　“Sorry, it may be an occupation habit…” Anton made a joke. Just now, every time Jason kept silence, he devised a way to make Jason kept on talking.
　　“You have confliction with that guy?” Doctor asked in alertness.
　　“No, I haven’t.” Anton said.
　　“Oh, I am sorry! I just came back and haven’t slept for days, so I seem a little blunt.” Jason said. Anton realized that Jason drank a little more today.
　　“But as soon as I got back I want to see you and …Susan!” Jason kept on talking,” After all, I just want to tell you that getting married is truly a good thing. No matter men or women growing to a certain age need to go in to marriage or it seems too weird making people random guess. So, congratulations to you! Now I guess, to the point, I need to take a nap for a while…”
　　(Fanwai Fin)

　　(To be continued....)