《No Name Yet》有有

4、~Chapter 4~

　　I am eighteen, going to nineteen ten days later. I’ve traveled too many

　　stops in my life, that sometimes I thought maybe I am too young to face all

　　these. No one had ever stood beside me, held my hands or courage me; for so

　　long, I believed that no one could be dependable in my black gray world.

　　However, things took chances to happen without any notice, and the only way

　　to solve the problem is to deal with it.

　　My plan was to go to New York, find a good school I could study at, I

　　desperately needed to be educated. Meanwhile I wanted to look for my sister.

　　I had post some articles about her on the Internet, with both of our picture

　　as babies that I found in the letter. Yet there are no one replied me. But

　　before all these, I must give up the job in here Las Vegas.

　　“You must not leave here!!!” Floria shouted at me.

　　“Why not? I wanted to leave and I have to. I don’t have an alternative,

　　Floria, I don’t!!” I shouted back.

　　“I would increase your salary by ten percent if you stay here. I need you,

　　girl! You are a superstar! You have no idea how amazing you were on the

　　stage!! You know you are the best here, you know it!!!” she adjusted her

　　breathes, tried to be calm.

　　“Floria,” I sighed. “What will happen to me when I am getting more older?

　　When someday I am not beautiful any more?”

　　“I know that, girl…” she gave me a irritated glance.

　　She went into a deep ponder afterwards, and there was silence for a few

　　minutes between both of us. Her beautiful long narrow eyebrows twisted

　　together…

　　“Girl, tell me more about you if you want. You’ve changed a lot recently!

　　You need help do you? Is there anything I could do for you?” she opened her

　　mouth after five minutes of concerns.

　　I forced myself with a smile. Maybe she is the only one in this world that

　　cares about me. Why, a gorgeous woman like her would help me without ask for

　　anything pays back. I know that she might be as lesbian, and I am not sure if

　　she wants anything from me. But she gave me the feeling that she was being

　　honest, and sincerely. This might be the last time to having a conversation

　　with her, so why not you give her what she wants to know? Clock was turning

　　very fast; I started my long story. When I looked up the ceiling I felt the

　　spinning of the earth again. She kept wiping her tears; paper tissues were

　　all around the floor.

　　“Floria… I am not going to have a single child from my flesh and blood…

　　Can you imagine how it feels like?” I asked.

　　She didn’t say anything.

　　“The only thing that support me to be alive is to find my sister, I want to

　　see her! She is the only one left in my family beside me.” To tell the truth,

　　I had a contradiction feeling about her. I wished she lived in this world

　　better than me, but on the other hand, I also wished she is more miserable

　　than me. I don’t know, I was truly puzzled for a very long period of time.

　　“Hey, look. If you want, I can probably find your sister. I have a large

　　network system. Plus, I will find a high school for you in New York. All you

　　need to do is to have a rest this few days and pack your stuffs. I will take

　　care rest of this.” She smiled. Eyes were twinkling like stars.

　　I hugged her tightly.

　　“Gillian, you reminded me of my own daughter…” she whispered at my ear, her

　　voice eventually dimmed away, and then I felt something wet on my cheek…