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江南
莫光远带我去泡吧，那是个很舒服的地方，灯光适宜，我们互相靠着坐在沙发上，安静的听店里放的钢琴曲。
在这么放松舒适的时候，我们却遭遇尴尬，莫光远那混乱的过往，终于暴露在我眼前。
“帅哥，我说最近怎么见不到你呢，原来是带了小妹妹躲这来了。”一个衣着暴露，浓妆艳抹的女子。
“品位不怎么样啊，枉我那次之后还想着你。”
对一个人最大的鄙视，不是言语的攻击，而是漠视。我们不理她，她自讨了个没趣，忿忿走开。
回去的路上，我们都没有说话，气氛一时间有些尴尬。交叉路口发生了车祸，我们被堵在车流里，时间一点点过去，车里的气氛也变得越来越凝重，
我想起他在书房电脑写的文章。
butterflies in the stomach
Maybe it is just a fantasy, maybe this kind of girl won't exist in this real and cruel world, maybe she does exist but already found her prince charming...... But, why not give it a try, I tell myself,even it is just a long shot. So here I am.
She is smart. Not those kind of street-smart, but wisdom-wise smart. So we can always carry a joyful discussion whenever we pick up some interesting topics. Once for a while, she will astonish me with some sparkling thoughts. She knows what kind of life she wants and what kind of person she wants to be. Of course I would not mind if she gets childish or muddle-headed occasionally, I will enjoy those moments and laugh with her.
She is pretty. She makes herself so glamorous and so different that I can recognize her at my first glimpse of her.Her beauty will not flee as time passes by because she knows intrinsic eleganceis what really matters. She will be a pretty mom and later a gorgeous grandma. She goes to gym regularly, play tennis, badminton, or squash with me. In winter, we enjoy speeding up on the ski tracks of the Alps.
She has a great taste of art. She enjoys music, novels, painting, maybe also sculpture and other fine arts. We will go to all kinds of museums, standin front of those masterpieces, hold our breath and admire those gifted spirits. She is a huge fan of movies, as same as I am. In weekend nights, we throwourselves into a comfort couch and watch several newest or most aged films. We smile and cry for others' fates just like we are living their lives. She speaks in fluent English and better yet in French.
Most important, she is kind, loving and caring. She loves kids, cares elders, and she is kind to handicapped people and the poors. She owns several real friends who can be counted on. She also loves dogs and cats, and will rush into a convenient store to buy a box of milk to feed a stray cat she meets inthe neighborhood.
Finally, if one day comes we speak out "for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish", she really really means it. Coz she knows I also mean it deep inside of my heart.
As I have said, all these above, it might be just a fantasy of mine, i may never meet her, but, if she occurs to see this post and click into it,she reads it again and again, there will be a voice rising up, she feels that she already knew me for a life-time.
And who am I? I am just an ordinary guy at his early 30s, well-educated, above-average appearance, confident, humble, caring, athletic,non-smoking, fresh while promising in his career, and in belief of soulmate.
这个心底柔软，渴望爱的男人，我心疼。
“我，之前有过一段失败的感情，后来我放纵过一阵子。”他终于开口说。
“我在酒吧遇见过你，我还送喝醉了的你去酒店。”我握住他的手。
他诧异地看看我。
“你知道你当时跟我说什么吗？”我笑着说。
“说什么？”
“你问我想不想跟你开房。”我捏住他的下巴，把他的脸转过来对着我，“想知道我怎么回答你的不？”
他点点头。
“我说，想。”
我们在车里接吻，一直到后面的车不耐烦的按喇叭催促我们开车，我们才分开。
每个人都有过去，过去不是用来纠结的，是用来遗忘的。
我是否应该感谢从前那个女人，如果不是她的放弃，我又怎么有机会遇到这么好的男人。
莫光远
我现在已经很少想起从前，至从我跟江南相遇，这个年轻的女孩子就慢慢一点一滴地占据了我的心，仿佛我在外面晃了这么多年，然后又孤身一人回到这个地方，就是为了在十年之后遇见她。
有的时候，我甚至会违心的想一想，这是不是就是那个吉普赛女人所说的，命运。
作者有话说
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