《一切的开始》折丷

4、日记

　　今天依旧是个好天气，我背着书包正常去学校。在转角处遇见了个男孩儿，那个男孩儿给我一种很熟悉的感觉，以至于一时间愣了神。
　　Today is still a fine day, I carry my backpack to school as usual. I met a boy at the corner, who gave me a very familiar feeling, to the point where I was momentarily stunned.

　　一下子就撞了上去，他的书也滑出去了一段距离。我以为这是我的错觉，我刚才好像看到了一只兔子，还摔倒了。
　　Suddenly, he collided and his book slid out for a distance. I thought this was my illusion. I thought I saw a rabbit just now and fell down.
　　事实证明，那就是我的错觉。我看到我旁边的人在哈哈大笑，不是，你怎么又平地摔了，我告诉你，今天你可是平地摔了两次了哈。真不是我想笑，哎呀呀，让我瞧瞧谁刚才又摔着了。她还在旁边笑，可我却一直在想刚才的事情。
　　As it turns out, that's my illusion. I saw the person next to me laughing loudly. No, why did you fall flat again? I'll tell you, you fell flat twice today. I really don't want to laugh. Oh dear, let me see who just fell again. She was still smiling next to me, but I kept thinking about what happened earlier.
　　好了，别想太多了，快走吧，不然就真的迟到了，我手里还拿着你同桌的饭呢，走啦，然后我就跟着她离开那里了。Alright, don't think too much. Let's go quickly, otherwise we'll really be late. I'm still holding your table mate's meal in my hand. Let's go, and then I'll follow him and leave there.

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　　我想回去翻找，我依稀的记着我有写日记的习惯。但关于2014年到底发生了什么，我注意到了，厚厚的笔记里面有好几页全是空白的。而且关于那年的记忆也消失了许多，我对于那年的印象消失的几乎完全没有了。
　　I want to go back and search, I vaguely remember that I have the habit of writing a diary. But regarding what exactly happened in 2014, I noticed that there were several blank pages in the thick notes. And the memories of that year have also disappeared a lot, and my impression of that year has almost completely disappeared.
　　很奇怪，转角处那个男孩儿突然就不见了。还有那个很熟悉的兔子，如果我没记错的话，我记得我很小的时候见到过一次。不过那是在很早之前了，我一直以为这是梦。
　　It's strange that the boy around the corner suddenly disappeared. And that very familiar rabbit, if I remember correctly, I remember seeing it once when I was very young. But that was a long time ago, I always thought it was a dream.
　　看来最近是真的没休息好。正当我想要把那本日记放回去的时候，就是那张相同的纸，上面依旧写着那句话。不要忘记这里，真是令人烦躁，又是那种类似于被墨水染了的感觉。大片大片都是墨，后面的字完全看不清。
　　It seems that I haven't had a good rest lately. Just as I was about to put that diary back, it was the same piece of paper with the same sentence still written on it. Don't forget here, it's really annoying, and it feels like being stained with ink. A large area is covered in ink, and the characters behind it are completely illegible.
　　这个时候妈妈的声音响起来了，她让我出来一下，有事找我。滴答滴答，时间过去了很久。等我处理完事情回去后，我发现那张纸彻底变白了。
　　At this moment, my mother's voice rang out, and he asked me to come out for a moment. If you have something to do, come to me. Tick and tick, time has passed for a long time. After I finished handling the matter and returned, I found that the paper had completely turned white.
　　脑脑子里面也晕乎乎的，全是一堆又一堆不属于我的记忆。像是在时刻提醒我，脑子里面应该装一些重要的东西。我总觉得我忘了很多事情，面对一些熟悉的事情的时候，总会有种感觉，或许这件事情不是第一次发生。
　　My mind was also dizzy, filled with piles of memories that didn't belong to me. It's like constantly reminding me that there should be some important things in my mind. I always feel like I've forgotten a lot of things, and when faced with familiar things, there's always a feeling that maybe this isn't the first time it's happened.
　　这天我走在马路上，看到街上的人人来人往。我左拐右拐走进一个小巷子，看到那里的人们在往河里面放垃圾，紧接着拿起手机装模装样的拍。说什么放垃圾的人很可恶，海洋需要大家保护之类的话。我只会觉得好笑。恍惚间好像又看见了那只兔子，它好像也在往那里看。
　　That day I was walking on the road and saw people coming and going on the street. I turned left and right into a small alley and saw the people there dumping garbage into the river. Then I picked up my phone and took photos of the scene. People who dump garbage are despicable, and the ocean needs to be protected by everyone. I only find it funny. In a daze, I seemed to see the rabbit again, as if it was also looking there.
　　我还在街上看到一群人，他们在举行葬礼。他们都在那里哭的很伤心，所有的人都在撕心裂肺的哭着，好像死去的真的是他们心爱的人。可是，为什么？为什么演一场戏不演完？他们出来之后就开始笑着的讨论，开始诉说讨论着那个人的遗产有多少。自己可以分到多少。他们有的人是打着房子的主意，有的也是打了股份的主意。有的人已经开始想该怎么花这笔钱，大家看起来好像都不伤心了，还真是好笑。
　　I saw a group of people on the street holding a funeral. They were all crying there very sad, and everyone was tearing their hearts and lungs, as if the person who died was truly their beloved. But why? Why don't we finish a scene? After they came out, they started laughing and discussing, telling and discussing how much that person's inheritance was. How much can I get. Some of them have an idea for a house, while others have an idea for shares. Some people have already started to think about how to spend this money, and everyone seems not to be sad anymore. It's really funny.
　　听他们说死去的是一位老人，大概在六十多岁左右，那位老人一生的愿望就是能够爬一次山，可她的双腿却不允许。
　　They said that the deceased was an old man, probably in his sixties. The old man's lifelong wish was to climb a mountain once, but her legs did not allow it.
　　因为这一次失去的人是家里的亲戚，所以我也就跟着一起去了，老人生前留下的东西也挺多的，所以死了之后他们都在商量。
　　Because the person I lost this time was a relative of my family, I followed along. The old man also left a lot of things during his lifetime, so after he died, they were all discussing.
　　我将提前准备好的那朵花放在了墓碑旁边，然后就离开了，这件事情总会让我想起父母的葬礼，在我印象中，我的父母因为并没有太多的钱，所以在参加葬礼的人也并没有那么多。
　　I placed the pre prepared flower next to the tombstone and left, which always reminds me of my parents' funerals. In my impression, my parents didn't have much money, so there weren't as many people attending the funeral.
　　今天我的朋友给我发来的消息，问我最近几天为什么不去学校。我不知道该怎么回答，只能和她说是家里的事。最近不方便去学校，
　　今天晚上又做了那个梦，梦里面那个少年依旧向我挥着手。问我为什么不和他一起走？真是奇怪的梦。
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　　Today, my friend sent me a message asking why I haven't been to school in the past few days. I don't know how to answer, I can only tell her it's a family matter. It's not convenient to go to school recently,
　　I had that dream again tonight, and the young man in the dream still waved his hand at me. Why didn't I go with him? What a strange dream.
　　可是紧接着我却看到，他将手放下来了，我看到他在哭，再说对不起，然后就转身离去了。
　　But then I saw him put his hand down, and I saw him crying, saying sorry, and then turned around and left.