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根据最后三章，Ricky/M被Stephen/F治愈的绝望，
这里的Ricky是M，Agnes是现在的F, Gerald是曾经的F
M绝望了，他发现自己越来越保不住曾经的爱，觉得自己快要忘记了，非常痛苦。而F最终告诉他，不要担心，忘记就忘记，根本不需要，你只要爱现在的我就可以了，我们一起面向未来，去意大利或者斯德哥尔摩开创新的未来。
The young man thought of her feelings no longer. His heart throbbed
louder and louder, and seemed to shake him to pieces. "Rickie!"
She was calling from the dell小山谷. For an answer he sat down where he was,on the dust-bespattered margin. She could call as loud as she liked. The devil had done much, but he should not take him to her.暗示纠结。这里是R/M在旁白/F眼中的纠结。
"Did you take me for the Dryad?" she asked. She was sitting down with his head on her lap膝. He had laid it there for a moment before he went out to die躺一会儿，四了也甘心, and she had not let him take it away不让他四.
A/F是绝对不允许R/M去四的。
"I prayed you might not be a woman," he whispered.
"Darling, I am very much a woman. I do not vanish into groves and trees. I thought you would never come."后来A/F通过S/F还真的变成女的啦。
"Did you expect--?"当M小心翼翼希望获得爱的肯定时
"I hoped. I called hoping."一直都希望着，F总是大方地承认。
Inside the dell it was neither June nor January. ..She bent down to touch him with
her lips. F胆子很大，我想亲就亲啦，有什么问题! 笑。
He started, and cried passionately, "Never forget that your greatest thing is over. I have forgotten: I am too weak. You shall never forget.哭了，是哀伤和害怕么？祈求Agnes/F不要忘记曾经最重要最深的爱恋结束了？Ricky/M自己已经记不住了是么？
这里翻译好像有错。cried不大对，按Foster在Maurice里用字的习惯，这里应该是极度悲伤近乎狂乱的。而不是兴奋叫喊。
M对于爱的逝去，非常的不安和绝望。在订婚时，就开始绝望和害怕了。其实这是对的，意识与潜意识的分裂。他分明并不爱自己的未婚妻，其实一直深爱的是F，却老是压抑自己，这样不崩溃才奇怪呢。
看过风房才明白，他恐惧的是F对自己的爱的逝去。
What I said to you then is greater than what I say to you now. What he gave you then is greater than anything you will get from me." Ricky曾经对Agnes说的:精神在天堂永存，和Gerald曾经给予Agnes的：敲锣去拿三明治，是草地上的爱吧。查阅前文，昏，这两个疯子不会当初曾经打算精神恋一辈子然后一起进天堂吧？好恐怖啊，这种意识层面的理由真是太恐怖了，可见潜意识层面的爱有多深。F好像是先放弃进天堂的。天堂论真真是害死人。
