《e-love》just happy

1、some personal feelings

　　it's about a friend i met through the internet several days ago.i can't stop thinking of him.at first i just want to meet someone who can speak english with me,and i found him from an english group.His english is good and easy-going.all that attracted me so much.i like him,like him very much.
　　i wait for him everyday,but he seldom show up,except the time he is on work.after work,he has plans--go to study,go swimming,read newspapers.He is too busy to go to the internet.which make me feel sad.
　　everytime i login in the □□,if he is there,then i 'll feel sad,i don't want to other people.i wait for him everyday,but i resist myself to make him know those.when he shows up,we talk.since he need to work at the same time,he can't reply to me immediately,and i accept that.i admire him,like him,maybe a little love.
　　i don't know why,i am not a child now,i am a grown up.but i still can't stop my feeling to him.this feeling almost kill me.i like him,i miss him,but i have no friends that i can talk them about this.only save it in deep heart.it doesn't matter,i still have good feeling to him.
　　the reason i write all these down is to remember the happy feeling i have, remember a good e-friend i make.his english is really good besides. if were given chances ,i really like to be his gf,maybe only my own dream.
　　he is mature,handsome---not appearance,but character.he is hard-working.all those contribute to my good feeling of him.
　　ok,after writing all this down,i feel much better.these words are for my e-friend,my buddy,my dear friend.
　　studying is still the thing i need to focus on at this time.i need to study hard to have the chance to go to a good university to continue my study. to the city where he is.when it comes true,maybe we can be lovers.it's my goal.i like it ,i like him.
　　best wishes to myself!