《I am yours.》后窗

4、LOVE UNDERSTAND

　　LOVE UNDERSTAND
　　1
　　it's almost 10 o'clock in the evening but his car is still here.
　　when i am almost fall asleep,a car stops beside me.
　　a man come out.
　　It's him, i can taste.
　　i pretending to sleep and hearing that his step comes near. All of a sudden,he stops and squats beside me.

　　"whyyou still sleeping here?" his voice fulls of sunshine.
　　i open my eyes restlessly, and he is looking at my eyes in the black, frowning.
　　"because the nature loves me so much." i answer him and regret at the same time, oh god, what a stuip mouth i have!

　　"well,great!" he open his cardoor and ready to go.
　　but he may thought that he made a wrong dicition-- the cold air makes my words so tremble:"feeling cold?"
　　"e...actually, i don't love nature that much..."
　　"i don't have much." he give me the whole money in his pocket, but i don't take.
　　well, dear,you know what, i won't take because i don't need your money, i need you.

　　"i'm fine,really..."
　　"....ok, take care of yourself." anyway, he leave me here with a word 'take care'.
　　well, it's enough, isn't it, Link?
　　i speak to myslef.

　　love understand love, while it always hesitate to catch happy.

　　2
　　i dreamed that i was in a whole dark place, black hands touched me continuously. they made me sick.
　　i begun to run.
　　where can i escape? i asked for myself.
　　then, there came the light.
　　i running for the light.
　　the moment i came into the light, i wake up.
　　it is the next day in the morning.

　　3

　　it's 5 o'clock, i wake up from a strange dream as usual.
　　i wash, bath, wear, comb and take a deep breath.then i go out of the subway and i see his car in a unusual place.
　　yes, his car should be in the parking lot, not beside the subway.

　　"get up early, boy?" he get out his car with his sunny vioce and step closer :"good morning."
　　"...good...morning..."he seems waiting for me...what? waiting for me?

　　"while boy, have you had your breakfast?"
　　"well, i don't have that things ..."since i came to America.
　　"well, can i have the honore have breakfast with you? "
　　"e```i beg your pardon?!?"

　　4
　　can you image a beautiful picture?
　　a man in a dream drives me to the restaurant for a breakfast at six past ten.
　　there is only 10 inch distance between us, when i turn left of my eyes, i can see his white teeth smiling in the sun.

　　he ask me what do i need.
　　i said, it's you.
　　and he nod his head, and begin to takes me to the breakfast everyday.

　　well, it's enough, isn't it, Link?
　　i speak to myslef again.

　　5
　　it will never enough unless he belong to me, right Link?
　　do i understand what's i really need?
　　i limited myself so manyyears, it's the time that i need to open my mouth and my heart?

　　i need...a place to live, a job to work, and a person to belong.
　　"maybe i can offer you a job, what can you do?"
　　"anything! i can cook, i can clean, wash and carry, i can tell dirty jokes, i can massage, i can dance for you and warm your bed, i will be good!"there are so many ways to love, why don't i choose the easiest one.
　　"you seem like that you want to work for me?"
　　"am i be hired?"

　　"while..."he is hesitating now, so i smile at him like a sunflower.
　　After a long silence, he finally open his door to me :"go with me. "
　　at that time, i feel like a bird that finally escape from the cage and back to where i should be; and like a fish that finally runs back to the souce of the river where it born.

　　6
　　"i tossed and turned last all night, i can saw you everyday since the begining of this month, i got a feeling that you are waiting for somebody to help, and when i connected with your eyes that i suddenly realized that the somebody could be me."

　　7
　　my name is Link,sixteen.
　　i am on the way of the long-suffering road.
　　but now, i can see the end.

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　　squat 蹲
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