《就算大梦一场》我的小天地

1、眼神发直 年龄本不该

　　好像是从今天开始，脑子有块橡皮擦，心里凝固着冰水。每一天的今天都是平平淡淡的，所以每一天的昨天都是被遗忘的。毫无新意，就像这一眼望过去看得到头的人生一样无聊。
　　殷晴呆呆地看着手里的笔，突如其来的寒潮没有影响到她，脱掉毛呢大衣仍然单薄的衣物在空调房里肆意妄为。可能是无事悲画扇，亦或者是为作新赋强做愁，生活本来就很苦，愁有什么不对的吗?我讨厌这个世界，我最讨厌的就是我自己，殷晴用力把自己留长的手指甲掐进肉里，红色确实比其他颜色来得更加耀眼，也更让人喜欢。
　　刚刚背的单词又忘记了，真的是年龄上来了，abominable是什么意思来着?abrasive呢？摆烂太久真的会失去学习能力，但是种下一棵树最好的时候就是现在。loser的碎碎念，loser的窥视，loser！真的很失败很烦。情绪有时候就像潮汐，起起伏伏不知所谓，晚上反而状态好一点，白天就会感觉自己和个异类一样。缺少社交也不太愿意说话，依赖手机。实际上就是不太想和人接触，信息茧房上显著给殷晴打上的tag就是社恐。好想有一份不需要和人交涉过多能养活自己的工作啊。
　　夜晚会格外让人回忆起过去，翻到16年发的朋友圈，哈哈，英语水平真的逐渐下降了。George Bernard Shaw once said: “There are two tragedies in our life. One is that you have not obtained what you love while the other is that you have obtained what you love.” I took his remark for granted and admired him for his easy and witty expression of the lamentable plight in life. But when carefully relishing it, I discover that the stand of this remark is still possession, which is the very reason why there are two tragedies: the affliction of not satisfying one’s appetite for possession and the vacuity of satisfaction. If we regard creation as our stand and have an aesthetic vision for life, can’t we say that there are two enjoyments: one is that you have not attained what you love and you can continue your pursuit and creation while the other is that you have attained what you love and you can commence your appreciation and experience? Certainly, there are always some agonies in our life and the sufferings experienced by those who value affection but despise profits are out of the consideration of those who pursue interests. However, if we can get rid of the appetite for possession, we, at least, can avoid a great deal of inconsiderable vexations and trivial afflictions and live a life of more tolerance. Rather than intending to suggest the aesthetic affection as an excellent tactics of salvation, I merely express such a belief that there is a life more worthy of living beyond righteousness and interests. This faith will support me through the precarious and unpredictable future.好多词都不知道什么意思了。到底怎么学好英语啊。