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1、Frida Snape ...
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“妈妈！妈妈！…”一个黑发黑眸的小姑娘拉着母亲长袍的袖子，狼狈不堪地跪坐在地上，一双乌黑的眼睛挂着晶莹的泪珠。她叫菲蕊达，菲蕊达·斯内普，自打记事起，她就和母亲生活在这座庄园里，庄园很大，每天菲蕊达的生活便是在庄园里转来转去，从未接触过外面的世界。她的世界里只有一个温柔的母亲，总跟在她后面的家养小精灵拉拉以及挂在墙上对她唠叨使人厌烦的塞尔温家族的祖先们。
菲蕊达问母亲的第一个问题便是自己的父亲，那时的她仅仅3岁，在母亲讲完一个关于小女孩和自己父亲的故事之后，小菲蕊达并没有在得到母亲一个柔柔的晚安吻后马上躺下睡觉，她拽拽母亲的手，瞪着乌黑的眼睛,满脸天真地问母亲：“妈妈，我的爸爸呢？我要我的爸爸…”黑色的眼珠直直地注视着自己的妈妈，仿佛她把父亲藏起来了。
母亲的眼中划过一道复杂的神色，她定了定神，为女儿掖好被子，淡淡地解释：“宝贝，你有一个父亲，西弗勒斯·斯内普，因为一些原因，你暂时不能见他，现在你应该睡觉，不要再想这个了。”
小菲蕊达显然不想就此放弃，她猛地拉开被子：“可我要我的爸爸！now！”
“菲蕊达，别闹，这些事情你总会知道的，但不是现在。”一向温柔的母亲态度变得强硬，没有再理会哭闹的菲蕊达，一挥魔杖，锁上门，只留下手忙脚乱哄小姑娘的家养小精灵拉拉。
第二天，不知道受哪幅肖像的影响，菲蕊达对父亲的印象变成“抛弃了妈妈的大坏蛋”，但因为母亲的阻止，关于父亲的话题便渐渐淡去，直到这一天。
现在的菲蕊达已经5岁了，一向聪明的她可以感觉到，本来身体不好的母亲最近越来越虚弱，甚至晚上的睡前故事变得敷衍，尽管心里有些不安，菲蕊达安慰自己：没关系，妈妈只是生病了，她可是厉害的女巫，总会好的。
那一天晚上，母亲一反常态，在女儿准备睡觉的时候，坐在菲蕊达枕边，抚着女儿的秀发：“我给你讲一些关于你父亲的事吧。”“我才不想听那个抛弃妈妈的坏蛋！”菲蕊达坐起来，撇撇嘴。
母亲把女儿按下去：“不要听墙上那些老东西鬼扯，他是你的父亲，他很优秀，你应该尊敬他。”“好好好，我知道了。“菲蕊达玩弄着手里的被子，有些敷衍地说。母亲看着女孩，无奈地轻轻拍了拍她的头，换来了一个委屈的眼神。
那一晚，母亲跟菲蕊达讲了很多，他的父亲是一个很伟大的魔药师，他有和菲蕊达一样的黑发黑眸，他的性格很别扭，但别扭地可爱，他和波特四人组的矛盾……菲蕊达到底是孩子，一个仅仅5岁的小女孩，听着听着，她的眼皮越来越沉重，最后紧紧闭上，发出均匀的呼吸声—她睡着了。最后一个念头，是她的父亲其实还不错，但到底抛弃了她最爱的妈妈，不可饶怒，哼！
母亲自顾自地说了很久，才猛然发现自己的女儿睡着了，一丝苦笑浮现在她的脸上，看着女儿恬静的睡容，她轻轻说道：“对不起，菲蕊达，我的女儿，我很爱你，但我不得不这样做，愿梅林保佑你。”她挥动魔杖，一层金色的光芒笼罩住菲蕊达，慢慢地渗透进她的皮肤，塞尔温家族古老的保护与祝福的咒语，这是她为她做的最后一件事了，泪水不自觉间润湿了她的眼眸，她握紧拳头，转身离开。
第二天，母亲告诉菲蕊达，她要把她送到父亲那里，尽管女儿又哭又闹，但是…她的身体已经支撑不住几天了，她心里一直有一个秘密，又或者，一个可怕的错误—她，塞尔温家族的大小姐，喜欢斯莱特林那个古怪的男孩—西弗勒斯·斯內普，可是尽管別人看不出來，戴琳·塞尔温心里很清楚，那个男人爱的，是莉莉·伊万斯，他总是站在一边，看着那个红发碧眼的女孩，眼睛里流露的是掩饰过但仍然真诚热烈的渴望和爱慕，戴琳从来不去打扰他，只是静静地在一边看着他，看着他从一个稚气未脱的少年，变成一个阴沉沉的青年，看着他从来不变的对那个姓伊万斯的女孩深深的爱。15岁，父母给她定婚了，是诺特家族的少爷，戴琳很讨厌那个疯狂崇拜神秘人的人。况且，他们爱的都不是对方。于是，在又一次与父母激烈的争吵后，她离开了塞尔温庄园，和父母一刀两断，而诺特跟别的家族一位小姐定了婚。戴琳再后来见到她的父母，他们都已经去世了，只留下一个空荡荡的庄园。戴琳极其冷静地处理好葬礼，接过家事。她父母不爱她，他们之间也没有爱，仅仅是利益的联姻罢了，而她，也只是换取更多利益的工具。
后来，伊万斯，又或者波特夫人去世了，戴琳在暗处看着那个男人痛苦，迷茫，她的心也如刀割一般：为什么，为什么你那么执着，为了她不顾一切，真的值得吗？西弗勒斯·斯内普，她在心中一遍一遍地念着这个名字。
又是一个阴暗的下午，斯内普喝醉了，这是一向自治的他第一次喝醉，正巧一直在附近默默关注他的戴琳注意到他的极端异常，犹豫了很久，还是推开了吱吱呀呀的门。自从莉莉去世，斯内普状态极其不正常，整日恍恍惚惚，要不是自身是巫师再加上戴琳一直在默默关照他，恐怕他早已亡命于哪里了。
推开门，映入眼帘的是凌乱黑暗的房间，一个狼狈不堪的男人双眼无神地坐在一堆破碎的玻璃瓶中间，嘴里呢喃着什么。
“西弗勒斯…”戴琳轻声呼唤着，眼前的一切如一把刀划进她的心里，那么骄傲的他如今变成了这副模样…真的值得吗…戴琳这么多年的情绪突然一下子爆发了，尽管知道答案，她固执地直视那个男人的眼睛：“你爱我吗？”男人没有回答她的问题，眼神涣散，戴琳自言自语般喃喃道：“我爱了你这么久，你爱我吗？肯定不爱吧…西弗勒斯·斯内普…”看着他的样子，她的心抽痛抽痛的，也许是脑子被什么冲昏了，又或者实在看不下去这个男人这个样子，想让他至少是轻松一点，戴琳做了可能是一生中最错误的决定，戴琳知道西弗勒斯的和莉莉的那次绝交，她轻轻挥动魔杖，瞬间化为了一个红发绿眸的漂亮女孩。果然，男人瞪大眼睛，不敢置信般轻轻呢喃着：“莉莉…”
“嗯…”戴琳笑着说，尽管她心里很痛，“西弗勒斯，好久不见…”
“我想说的是，西弗勒斯，那次“泥巴种”的事情我知道你是无意的，我原谅你了，不用为此愧疚，我的死也不是你的错，不要再想这些了，好好过你的生活…”就这样吧…戴琳拿起魔杖，准备结束这个被冲昏脑子的愚蠢的行为，但愿能给他带来即使是那么一点点安慰。
令她没有想到的是，那个男人在喝得不省人事的状态下，竟纵身向她扑来，发泄一般…
昏迷前，她没有进行任何挣扎，任由泪水在脸上肆虐。再后来，她仅仅记得醒来之后，身旁的男人已毫无意识，她拿出魔杖，默默收拾好一切，给男人一个“一忘皆空”，默默回到了戴维丝庄园。
过了一些日子，她怀孕了，犹豫了很久，依然没有打掉那个孩子，但她的生命力也随之慢慢流逝，越来越衰弱。到时候了，她应该把那个孩子给那个男人，无论结果如何，至少他是她的父亲不是吗。她给她最好的朋友，艾伯特·沙菲克留了一封信，他是菲蕊达的教父，一位在魔法部非常优秀的巫师，他会默默照顾菲蕊雅，但戴琳还是希望菲蕊达跟着自己的亲生父亲一起生活。
狠下心来，戴琳强迫自己不再听菲蕊达的哭闹，用尽最后的力气幻影显型，把菲蕊达放在斯内普家门口，连带着一封信。她给了疯狂哭喊的女儿一个禁锢咒，露出一个苍白无奈的笑容：“对不起，菲蕊达，妈妈爱你，好好跟你爸爸生活。”随后，就拖着疲惫不堪的身体离开了。她不知道自己要往哪去，仅存的魔力甚至不够支撑她使用一个最基础的魔咒，她只是漫无目的地向前晃荡着，想着自己草草的一生，慢慢失去了意识，就那么倒在地上。
另一边，菲蕊达哭得渐渐失去了力气，无力地靠在门上，她虽然仅仅5岁，但她懂得死亡，也知道母亲这一去，恐怕就是永别。菲蕊达·斯内普，以后你就再也见不到她了，你要靠自己！她狠狠警告自己，蜷缩着身子，陷入了睡眠，夜，已经深了。
English:
"Mom! Mom! ..." A little girl with eyes pulled the sleeve of her mother's robe and knelt on the ground in embarrassment, with a pair of dark eyes hanging crystal tears. Her name is Frida ,Frida Snape. Since she remembering, she has lived in this manor with her mother. The manor is very large. Every day, Frida 's life is around in the manor and has never been exposed to the outside world. There is only one gentle mother , Lala, a domestic elf who always follows her , and the ancestors of the Nagging annoying Selvin family on the wall in her world.
Frida's first question to ask her mother was her father. At that time, she was only 3 years old. After her mother told a story about the little girl and her father, little Frida did not lie down and sleep immediately after getting a soft good night kiss from her mother. She grabbed her mother's hand and stared at her eyes，asked with a naive face, "Mom, where's my father?I want my father..." The black eyes stared straight at her mother, as if she had hidden her father.
There was a complicated look in her mother's eyes. She calmed down, tucked her daughter in the quilt, and explained faintly, "Baby, you have a father, Severus Snape. For some reason, you can't see him for the time being. Now you should go to bed and don't think about this anymore."
Little Frida obviously didn't want to,and She suddenly pulled the quilt: "But I want my father!Now!"
"Frida , stop it. You will know these things, but not now." Her mother, who had always been gentle, became tough and ignored the crying, waved her wand and locked the door, left only the little girl's domestic elf Lala.
The next day, don't know which portrait was affected, and Frida 's impression of her father became "abandoned his mother's big bad guy", but because of her mother's prevention, the topic about her father gradually faded until this day.
Now Frida is 5 years old. She can feel that her mother who were in poor health and getting weaker and weaker. Recently, even night's bedtime stories have become perfunctory. Frida comforts herself: It doesn't matter. Mom is just sick. She is a powerful witch and will always be fine.
That night, the mother was abnormal. While her daughter was about to go to bed, she sat at Frida 's pillow and stroked her daughter's hair: "Let me tell you something about your father." I don't want to hear the villain who abandoned my mother!"Frida sat up and curled her lips.
The mother pressed her daughter and said, "Don't listen to the old things on the wall. He is your father. He is excellent. You should respect him." Okay, okay, I know."Frida played with the quilt in her hand and said perfunctoryly. The mother looked at the girl and patted her helplessly on the head in exchange for an aggrieved look.
That night, his mother talked a lot to Frida . His father was a great magician. He had the same black hair and black eyes as Frida . His personality was very awkward, but awkward and cute. He had a contradiction with the Potter quartruple... Ferry reached the bottom of the child, a little girl who was only 5 years old. Listen to it. With that, her eyelids became heavier and heavier, and finally closed tightly and made a uniform breathing sound - she fell asleep. The last thought was that her father was actually not bad, but after all, she abandoned her beloved mother. Don't be angry, hum!
The mother said to herself for a long time before she suddenly found that her daughter was asleep. A bitter smile appeared on her face. Looking at her daughter's quiet sleep, she whispered, "I'm sorry,Frida , my daughter, I love you very much, but I have to do this. May Merlin bless you." She waved her wand, and a layer of golden light shrouded Frida , slowly penetrated into her skin. The ancient protection and blessing spell of the Selvin family was the last thing she did for her. Tears unconsciously wet her eyes. She clenched her fist and turned away.
The next day, her mother told Frida that she was going to send her to her father. Although her daughter was crying and noisy, her body had been able to stand for a few days, and there had always been a secret in her heart - she, the eldest lady of the Selvin family, loved Slyterin 's strange boy - Severus Snape. However, although others couldn't see it, Darlene Selvin knew in her heart that the man loved Lily Evans. He always stood aside and looked at the red-haired and green-eyed girl. What she showed was a concealed but sincere and warm desire and admiration. Darlene never disturbed him, but just looked at he quietly. He watched him change from a childish teenager to a gloomy young man, and watched his deep love for the girl surnamed Evans. At the age of 15, her parents married her. He is the young master of the Nott family. Darlene hates the person who worships You Know Who crazily. Besides, they don't love each other. So, after another fierce quarrel with her parents, she left Selvin Manor. and broke up with her parents. And Nott married a young lady from another family .Later, when she saw her parents , they had passed away and left only one empty manor. Darlene handled the funeral with great calmness and settled the family affairs. Her parents don't love her, and there is no love between them. It's just a marriage of interests, and she is just a tool for more benefits.
Later, Evans, or Mrs. Potter, passed away. Darlene looked at the man in pain and confusion in the dark, and her heart was cut like a knife: Why, why are you so persistent and desperate for her?Is it really worth it? Severus Snape, she read the name over and over again in her heart.
Another dark afternoon, Snape was drunk. This was the first time he had always been autonomous. Darlene,who happened to have been looking at him silently nearby, noticed his extreme abnormality. After long hesitation, she still opened the squeaky door. Since Lily's death, Snape has been in an extremely abnormal state. He has been in a trance all day. If he hadn't been a wizard and Darlene had been caring for him silently, afraid he would have died somewhere.
He opened the door and saw the messy dark room. An embarrassed man sat in the middle of a pile of broken glass bottles with his eyes and muttered something.
"Severus..." Darlene shouted softly, and everything in front of her entered her heart like a knife, He used to be so proud that he became like this…Is it really worth it... Darlene’s emotions suddenly burst out for so many years. Although she knew the answer, she stubbornly looked straight into the man's eyes: "Do you love me?" The man didn't answer her question, and her eyes were distracted. Darlene muttered to herself, "I've loved you for so long. Do you love me?" Definitely not love me ... Severus Snape..." Looking at his appearance, her heart hurts. Maybe she was dizzy by something, or she really couldn't stand the man like this. She wanted to make him at least a little relax. Darlene made what was probably the most wrong decision in her life. Darlene knew that Severus and Lily's breakup, she gently waved her wand and instantly turned into a beautiful girl with red hair and green eyes. Sure enough, the man opened his eyes wide and muttered in disbeliefied, "Lily..."
"Well..." Darlene said with a smile, although her heart hurts. "Severus, long time no see..."
"What I want to say is, Severus, I know you didn't mean that "mud seed" thing. I forgive you. Don't feel guilty about it. My death is not your fault. Don't think about this anymore and live your life..." That's it... Darlene picked up the wand and was ready to end this dizzy. The stupid behavior, I hope it can bring him even a little comfort.
What she didn't expect was that the man rushed at her in a state of unconscious drinking, like venting... Later, she only remembered that after waking up, the man beside her was unconscious. She took out her wand, packed everything silently, and gave the man a forgetful curse and returned to Selvin Manor silently.
After some days, she was pregnant, hesitated for a long time, and still didn't kill the child, but her vitality slowly passed away and became weaker and weaker. At that time, she should give the child to that man, no matter what the result is, at least he is her father, isn't he? She left a letter to her best friend, Albot Shafik.He is Darlene‘s best friend,a very good wizard in the Ministry of Magic He will take care of Frida silently. But Darlene still wants Frida to live with her biological father.
Cruelly, Darlene forced herself not to listen to Frida's hard work, exhausted her last phantom, and put Frida in front of Snape's house with a letter. She gave her crying daughter a confinement spell, showing a pale and helpless smile: "I'm sorry, Frida, mom loves you. Live with your father." Then, he dragged his tired body away. She didn't know where she was going, and the remaining magic was not even enough to support her to use one of the most basic spells. S□□ wandered forward aimlessly, thinking about her hastily life, slowly lost consciousness and fell to the ground.
On the other hand, Frida cried so much that she gradually lost her strength and leaned against the door powerlessly. Although she was only 5 years old, she knew death and knew that her mother would probably say goodbye forever. Frida Snape, you will never see her again. You have to rely on yourself! She warned herself hard, curled up, fell asleep, and the night was already deep.
