《This side of the cross》ErisedK

1、Chapter 1 Accidents "Pei

　　At a weekend, the clock in the car flashed with the number 23:28.

　　The city in the evening with rain is bustling and gorgeous. Earl lowered the window and glanced the bright night view. He picked up his mobile phone, skillfully pressed several numeric keys, listened to the echo of ringing, and finally heard a soft voice: "Hello?"

　　"Pei Li ... I want to hear your voice ... I miss you."

　　At the other end, there was silence.

　　"I ... want to come back ... and we start over ... will you?"

　　"Well ... I know ... but I wish you to take care of everything. I'm sorry, please don't connect me until everything is all right. " Hanging up without hesitation.

　　While listening to a beep, Earl thought, so many words without sharing, however, I am indeed not qualified to say now, looking out the window. "It's raining heavily." he thought to himself, everything will be better.

　　Pei Li hung up and lost in thought.

　　Remember that parting night that Earl stopped on the bridge near Pei Li's house.

　　"That's our end. Let's separate. " Earl looked at Pei Li with a smile.

　　Pei Li unbelievably asked, "Do you mean separation? Are you joking? Why? "

　　Earl smiled to Pei Li and said, "It's just separation. Quiet separation. Temporary separation. "

　　They crossed the path side by side, met the distant red-and-yellow sun that was about to set, vaguely in the boundless sky. The strong wind shook the grass and trees in the distance violently. Pei Li saw her shadow walking there alone, and there was an endless road ahead of her. She saw Earl quietly standing beside her with a smile and saying sorry. While his visions were looking to the other winding and distant road, he doesn't seem to hesitate. This was their 387th day together. She knew everything was over. Pei Li seemed to see her sadness seeping out of her body like blood in deep despair. From then on, she thought, no longer need to call him, not afraid of being rejected for no reason, not qualified to suspect him again. She loved him so deeply that he deserved to be tolerated.

　　Understanding Earl’s lie, Pei Li's still said: "OK, I agree." with her dry lips.

　　Time shakes like ripples. She suddenly seemed to remember the moment Earl sitting with her. The night when they first met was so quiet, facing the burning stove, which occasionally lit up Earl's face. They were silent until the music played an old song. It was the first time she heard "I don't want to do this either" sang by a female singer named Faye Wong. The euphemistic and sentimental music was flowing in the dim space, and the faint happiness seemed to call her not far away, and she was so happy at that time. While he stood in front of her quietly with a smile. After a long pause, Pei Li said, "May I hug you?" Earl still smiled and held out his arms. It was , Pei Li inhaled the familiar smell of him deeply into her body, turned to leave, and her tears suddenly flowed out.

　　Later, during their separation, he would call from time to time. When Pei Li was taken care of and protected by him so well that she didn't suffer pain when they fell in love. She went to school and was a good girl at home as usual, but after that separate night, Pei Li always thought of some ways to kill time and didn't want to let herself be free.

　　After a long time, Pei Li realized that she didn't even protect her happiness at that time. How could she meet other happiness? Living without Earl was like a body without soul. “If you believe in love at first sight, you will never stop looking.” Pei Li regretted that she pretended to be so hard and self-respecting, and let Earl leave her life and gradually disappear in her sight.

　　There was a loud thunder rumbled, like a final hint that the city would captured. Pei Li was awakened by thunder in the dark room, and turned on the bedside lamp. It was 12:25.

　　"Earl, I am afraid of thunder." Pei Li mumbled, pulled up her quilt, buried her face in the quilt and whispered to herself, "I hate you. Why? Why did you leave me alone? I miss you so much ... "Pei Li carefully checked her phone. "Earl, everything will be fine, right?"

　　After breaking up, Pei Li soon learned Earl made a new girlfriend. They still had some common friends. No needs to inquire, there was always his news. However, she tries to persuade herself that it was nothing and not important, he just didn’t stand the temptation, he would realize that his lover was me. But the harder she tried to get over it, the less she could do it. Pei Li knew it was self-deception, and suddenly understood that if she wanted to start a new life, she had to throw away everything about the old days.

　　At 12:55, Pei Li got up, made coffee, and turned on the washing machine. Listening to the rumbled thunder, she wrote a diary and was in a daze while smelling the aroma of coffee, and her thoughts was far away until the endless thunder pulled her back to reality.

　　She walked around the room with bare feet on the cold ground, which can remind she was still alive. She was greedy for food, scenery and handsome people. She should live positively. But didn't know why, in this restless night, she couldn't calm down, just like a beast in trouble couldn’t escape hunter’s trap.

　　At dawn, Pei Li was awakened by a bell in a daze, a strange number. Who would call her in the morning on weekends? She picked up, and her mind went blank after listening to the caller.

　　"Are you Pei Li? Can you come to XX Hospital? Here's a decedent for a car accident who needs you to confirm his identity ... "

　　Pei Li only took a few minutes to rush to the street, waved and stopped a taxi. She sat in the car without tearing, like a puppet. However, her heart began to burst into colic without warning. She hoped that everything was wrong. She didn't receive the call, or someone would tell her when she arrived at the hospital later, I'm sorry we made a mistake. Earl ... How could Earl ... die? Car accident? It's ridiculous that Earl died in his favorite car. What an irony it is. Is God playing tricks on people? It must be ... It must be a joke. Someone must be playing a joke on me.

　　"Driver, please you drive faster." Pei tried to control herself.

　　The driver glanced at Pei Li in the rear mirror, and the girl looked pale. In the early morning of the weekend, there were few vehicles on the road. The driver changed gears, stepped on the gas pedal and began to accelerate.