《弥漫的倦（短篇集）》DivineDesire

2、短篇——对错无辩 死亡解脱死

　　Behind the door, Euo pursed his lips. He slid down on to his bed, and shivered with fatigue, as he remembered how he had been reprimanded by the Headmaster. The Headmaster was flailing the books over him, shouting ‘ Now! you failed the exam! And you ruined our school’s reputation! Think about your life, yes you do only think of yours! You don’t know how much pressure the school and all the professors are under!’

　　Euo continued stressing, and he zipped up his zipper as he felt a sense of penetrating coldness coming from all his surroundings. He continued talking to himself ‘I didn’t mean to do anything sadistic,’ he whispered to himself, ‘But it just happened.’ Crumpled on to the floor, Euo winced when his base of his spine crashed on to the cold tiles. Feeling his heart beating, he questioned himself what is the value of living on However, he couldn’t find an answer, he felt he had been separated from the world, and his mind was spinning like a carousel. Euo was desolate, irrational, unable to carry out any thinking process.

　　The room was very quiet, the cold winter sunlight came through the thin curtain. Everyone in the room was out to a party. Euo rambled deliriously ‘I was ranked as A, like everyone else in this school. And now… I am devoid of emotion’.

　　Quietly, he walked up to the rooftop. His steps were heavy. As soon as he reached the edge of building, his mind went blank and he paused. After a moment, a wandering student near the residence heard a sound of an object smashing on to the ground.

　　On the brink of death, Euo felt he was relieved. He couldn’t bear the school regime, couldn’t consult with anyone. At the moment when he reclined from the building, and plummeted towards the ground. The air touched his hand, dancing through his fingers, and he finally felt his heart was flashing in its own way.

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