《shiva的等待》Astarte

2、达刹约尼

　　达刹的这个长女——Adi Shakti的转世被父母取名为达刹约尼（Dakshayani），此外她还被冠以昵称——萨蒂（Sati）。
　　自她小时候起，作为自诩文明的达刹总是把她关在宫殿之中，不肯放她外出——生怕她接触了外边的空气就会变质一样！其实这并非是毫无道理的，因为萨蒂是一个极其活泼，热爱冒险的女孩……只要你转过头去，她下一秒就会跑得没了踪影。钵罗苏底或者达刹总是跑遍了各处，才在一颗大树下、一条小溪边以及诸如此类的地方找到她……但恐怕达刹最担心出现的是——她闯进一群林伽虔诚信徒的聚集地，搞得疯疯癫癫、满身都是灰……（那可要使自己丢人到极点了！）
　　所以达刹会发动自己的老婆一起来进行思想教育：
　　“女儿啊！你是达刹约尼，尊贵的人类统治者——达刹的长女！你要把自己放得庄重，符合一个高贵公主的身份！”
　　小萨蒂对此装聋作哑。
　　“那外面荒郊野外的有什么景致？难道还比皇宫里好些不成？”
　　“……”
　　“你跑到外面去，要是被阿修罗拐走了可怎么办？”
　　“……”
　　“萨蒂，你听妈妈一句劝，你也不小了，应该学会收敛自己了！”
　　“……”
　　“萨蒂，你这样以后看谁敢要你！”
　　“……”
　　“萨蒂，你非要惹爸爸妈妈伤心吗？你看你的妹妹们谁像你这样！”
　　“都一样不是无聊死了！”萨蒂终于爆发了，“难道你们有那么多乖乖的女儿还不觉得够，偏要多我一个不成？”
　　对于这样的一个孩子，达刹动不动发火，偶尔动手责打也是难免的。毕竟不同于达刹的其他女儿，这孩子天生与达刹八字不合——毕竟她是宇宙母神的人类形象，她天生热爱无拘无束的生活；而达刹的嗜好就是用各种各样的规则把人们管束起来，使得人们服从于所谓的繁文缛节……虽然不少达刹治下人私下对此颇有微词，但是碍于达刹的权威，只能对此忍气吞声。毕竟达刹的思想上的影响，让他们习惯了等级上的束缚……其实后来梵天一年只被祭祀一次，也有人们怨念达刹而迁怒于他的原因所在，很多人（包括梵天的其他儿子，达刹的兄弟）都认为是梵天偏袒达刹，把他给惯坏了，对此梵天哭笑不得（梵天：这真不是我的错，他经常连我也不尊重，我也无力管教他了）……
　　后来达刹总算找到了一个让小萨蒂安分下来的方法：他给该死的宝贝女儿请了一个家教——Madnikey来教授舞蹈。虽说萨蒂小时候坐不住，但是她却对舞蹈有一种执念，她说：“跳舞的时候，我觉得我的灵魂也跟着舞动了起来……”在Madnikey看来这个小女孩有一种与众不同的灵性，领悟能力很高，也算她最得意的学生之一吧！因此，Madnikey和这个小女孩尤其的亲密，以致她对待萨蒂就像亲生女儿一样，而萨蒂对她也尤其心直口快，无话不说！
　　萨蒂跳舞方面的天赋也终于给了达刹夫妇些许告慰，好歹这孩子也不是一无是处，也许她跳着跳着，性情就会比以前好一些呢！
　　学跳舞分散了萨蒂的精力，使得她之后不再那么频繁的往外跑，与此同时，萨蒂也渐渐长大了……然而见鬼的是——作为长女的她一直都没被嫁出去！原因有二：一、达刹的很多熟人都知道达刹约尼小时候很坑爹，不安分，所以认为她现在一定也好不到哪里去，所以娶她肯定要使自己家丢脸；二、即使有些人想要与达刹攀亲迎娶达刹约尼，也大都私底下被梵天大人以各种理由劝退，转而娶了萨蒂的妹妹们……所以萨蒂眼睁睁看着她13个妹妹嫁给了Sage Kaspaya，27个妹妹嫁给Chandra（月神Soma），10个嫁给了……而她却一直苦逼的待字闺中，比她更焦急的是达刹夫妇，可这能有什么办法呢！达刹去找其父亲大人理论，此人总告诉他不必着急，萨蒂自然会有一位合适的丈夫，只是时候未到罢了……
　　这种情况一直没有改观，直到有一天，萨蒂做了一个梦。

　　梦中，晴空万里，没有一丝云彩。萨蒂在莽莽群山中闲逛，她感觉自己似乎是在空中飘摇一样，一会儿功夫，飞到一根高耸入云的柱子前面。
　　“咦，这是做什么用的？”萨蒂说着，用手碰了碰这个柱子，“是什么材料做的？铜？铁？好像有一点弹性……真是太奇怪了！”
　　萨蒂正准备掉头离开，却隐隐听到柱子内部有种幽深的声响，顿时停住了。
　　“好神奇诶！”萨蒂围着柱子前前后后打量了一番后，忍不住又碰了碰那个柱子，顿时发现手感不错……她的童心嗖嗖嗖的复发了，决定换一种玩法。她用两只手捏在上面，轻轻的挤动一把。里面发出呼噜呼噜的声响，让萨蒂的心里不禁一阵痒痒。“哇！真好玩！”萨蒂又用一只手指弹了柱子一下。柱子抖动了一下，静默了。
　　然而好景不长……霎那之间，天气骤变，狂风瞬起，飞沙走石，撩起萨蒂的裙子、发巾和辫子……没多久，萨蒂已经看不见几米外的事物了……萨蒂想找个地方躲避一下风沙，但是视线范围内比较高大的东西只有那根诡异的柱子。萨蒂来不及细想，就抱住了它。
　　一个响雷骤然撕破天穹，倾盆的大雨泼了下来，风的撕扯更剧烈了，似乎有把萨蒂卷走的气势……萨蒂害怕极了，只得紧紧的搂住柱子，不敢有任何松懈……人的体温从柱子中散发开来，侵入萨蒂的身体，让她有了一种莫名的感觉，这是她自出生以来从来没有体验过的……
　　又一个响雷劈过，萨蒂一下子从梦中惊醒，刷的从床上坐了起来。窗外竟真的大雨瓢泼，电闪雷鸣……
　　“这真的只是一个梦吗？”萨蒂喃喃的说，“为什么感觉那么的真实？”

　　一连几天，萨蒂都有些心神不宁，她总是不自主的去回顾这个梦！她不知道对于那个梦，自己是想念呢，还是恐惧呢？
　　“不管怎么说，我还想捏捏那个柱子。”她对自己默默的说。

作者有话说

　　这关于林伽，发一个英文引文供大家参考：
At the beginning of creation, there was nothing in the universe. The universe was not there either. It was only the brahman (divine essence) which was everywhere. The brahman was neither hot nor cold, neither thick or thin. It had no beginning and no end.
There was water everywhere. Lord Vishnu manifested himself in his great form and slept on the water. While Vishnu was sleeping, a lotus flower (padma) sprouted from his navel. It had many petals and its stem shone like a thousand suns. From the cells of the lotus Brahma was born. He began to wonder, There seems to be nothing around except for this lotus. Who am I? Where did I come from? What am I supposed to do? Whose son am I ? Who made me?
Brahma thought he might find the answers to these questions if he explored the lotus a bit. Perhaps he ought to try and find the centre of the lotus. Brahma descended down the stem of the lotus and wandered around for a hundred years. But he could not find the flower’s centre. He then decided that he might as well go back to the cell from where he had been born. But despite wandering around the stem for another hundred years, Brahma could not find the cell. By then he was so tired that he gave up and rested.
Suddenly he heard the words, Brahma, perform tapasya (meditation).
Brahma meditated for twelve years. When the twelve years were over, the four-armed Vishnu appeared before Brahma. In the four hands Vishnu held a shankha (conch shell), a chakra (a bladed discus), a gada (mace) and a padma. Brahma didn’t know who this person was and he asked, Who are you?
Vishnu didn’t directly answer the question. Instead, he replied, Son, the great Lord Vishnu has created you.
Who are you to call me a son? demanded Brahma.
Can’t you recognize me? came the reply. I am Vishnu. It is from my body that you have been created.
But Brahma was not convinced. He began to fight with Vishnu.
While they were thus engaged in fighting, a shining linga (Shiva’s image) arrived on the scene. It seemed to have no beginning or end.
Vishnu said, Brahma, let us stop fighting. There is a third being here now. What on earth is this linga? And where did it come from? Let us try and find out what this is. You adopt the form of a swan (hamsa) and go up. I shall adopt the form of boar (varaha) and go down. Let us try and find the extremities of this linga.
Brahma agreed. He became a whilte swan and flew up. Vishnu became a white boar and went down. They looked for four thousand years, but could not find the end of the linga. So they returned to where they had started off from and began to pray. They prayed for a hundred years. After the hundred years were over, the sound of om was heard and a being with five faces and ten arms appeared before them. This was Mahadeva or Shiva.
Vishnu said, It is good that Brahma and I have been fighting. It is because of our fight that you arrived.
Shiva replied, We are all three parts of the same entity and have been divided into three. Brahma is the creator. Vishnu is the preserver and I am the destroyer. There is another being named Rudra who will be born form my body, but Rudra and I are really one and the same. Let Brahma create now.
Shiva disappeared and Brahma and Vishnu gave up their forms of a swan and a boar.
个萨蒂是不是太奇葩了一点，不过就湿婆这种人而言，他肯定喜欢奇葩的老婆……