7、6. The past ...
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Angel: I’d rather die with you.
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Damon从酒吧把喝的烂醉的Angel拖了回来。
第二天。
Angel眼睛还没睁开，眉头先皱了起来。
“Wake up, sleeping beauty.” Damon将一只杯子贴到Angel脸上。
Angel闭着眼睛，摸索着接过杯子喝了一口。
Angel:” Warmed hydromel？”
Damon:” Heard it’s a cure for hang over.”
Angel终于睁开眼:” That should be honey water.”
Damon:” Oh…”
Angel喝完了把水杯塞给Damon，懒懒的闭上了眼。
Damon蹭到Angel身边躺下，环住他，用手轻轻揉着他的头。
Damon:” How do you feel？”
Angel:” … horrible. And since when do you talk about feelings.”
Damon:” Guess I just… had been in the same place.”
Angel:” How did you get out？”
Damon:“ Who told you I’m out？”
Angel轻轻一笑。
Damon:” Actually I just replaced that with a new one.”
Angel :” Yeah… me too.”
Damon:” Ah,your ex-boyfriend. Is he alive？”
Angel:” Yes.”
Damon:” Good. Then what exactly happened to your, love？”
Angel吸了一口气:” You do know I’m a killer right？”
Damon:” Frankly,you really don’t like one.”
Angel:” I was, like one. Hmm, ever since I was 5, William, the head of H, started to train me as an all-round killing machine. Of course before 5 I was in the lab practically have experimental surgery every day, so. ”
Damon紧了紧手臂:” Painful.”
Angel:” At that time, I don’t even know what pain means… And of course, when I grew up, a lot of missions, in a word -- kill. I was even worse than the ripper Stefan. At least he was doing that for a reason.”
Damon轻轻蹭了蹭Angel的头顶。
Angel:” Until I met him. He turned me into a real… human. He means everything to me.”
Means, Damon挑了挑眉。
Damon:” How did he die？”
Angel:” William noticed I was changed. He was outraged. He signed me to Tibet for a mission. And when I came back, all there waiting for me was Louis’s dead body.”
Damon:” So, Louis？”
Angel:” En, he was an illegitimate child of a Hohenzollerns.”
Damon:” The German Royal？”
Angel:” Yes. I was too stupid to think that his family can offer any protection.”
Damon:” That’s not your fault.”
Angel:” That is my fault… but that’s not the worst.”
Damon:” So what’s wrong with the Chinese over sea student？”
Angel:” No, not him. Uh, after Louis’s death, I was desperate. So I killed William, destroyed everything in the laboratory and froze myself with him.”
Damon:” Wow.”
Angel:” After ten years, Victor, William’s son, brought me out of the ice, and removed all my memory.”
Damon:” Oh, it does get worse. But if you can start over… oh…”
Angel:” Yeah, after I met K and really began to start over, Victor recovered my memory.”
Damon抱紧了Angel:” I’m sorry…”
Angel闭上了眼睛。
Damon:” Hey, do you want to hear about my secret pains, maybe make you feel better？”
Angel:” Sure.”
Damon:” My mother died soon after gave birth to Stefan. My father, well,他是个刻板的老头，而我，总是让他失望。当然，Stefan才是他的prefect son.特别是他希望我参加内战，而我逃了回来。”
Angel:” Civil war is stupid. You were not defending against enemy. You were against your siblings. And you are only 20. He can’t make you sacrifice your life for his honour.”
Damon:” Thank you.”
Angel:” And didn’t you mentioned before that Stefan actually killed your father？”
Damon:” Yeah, how ironic.”
Angel:” Well, it turns out,you and Katherine have a lot in common. Maybe that’s the reason you are so captivated by her.”
Damon:” Yeah I really did. She is beautiful, smart, fun. Everything I ever wanted for a woman.”
Angel笑了笑:” Except for warm and care.”
Damon也笑了:” Yeah. Exactly. And of course,you know the end of that story.”
Angel:” Damon,you and Katherine have different nature. She won’t care anyone more than herself. Maybe that’s because she no longer have any family and have to run for 500 years. So she always need look out for her own. But you are different. You care.”
Damon:” No I’m not. I’m a vampire.”
Angel:” Don’t try to denial it. You know why I like you？”
Damon:” So you like me.”
Angel:” Yes,you never hide who you are. You have the courage to pursue your love, no matter it’s right or wrong, make sense to other people or not. Wish I was half brave as you are, then maybe I can be with someone I loved instead of passed out and woke up in a strange world.”
Damon:” You don’t like this world？”
Angel:” Yes I do. I had nightmares for years. At least in here I can have some sleep.”
Damon:” Nightmares？ Like, ah, last night？”
Angel:” So you checked on me. How sweet.”
Damon:” I worried about you.”
Angel:” Um, a worming Damon. I like you even more.”
Gilbert宅。
Damon站在路边，望着他心爱的女人在自己Brother身边露出甜美的笑容。或许，他是在看一百四十五年前，那个倚在窗台边、露出骄矜笑容的女人。
最后他只是轻轻一笑，转身离开了。
Stefan:” What are you looking at？”
Elena:” I think I saw Damon.”
Stefan:” Really Isn’t he staying with Angel？”
Elena:” Yeah, how is Angel？”
Stefan:” Ah, not good. Damon practically dragged him back last night.”
Elena:” I should know when he said his lover is dead.”
Stefan:” Elena you haven’t seen his face, like his whole world is turning upside down.
Elena:” I can imagine.”
Stefan:” Have you talk to Jeremyyet？”
Elena:” Yeah I did. He promised try everything he can do to avoid thinking of them. Well, I still swallow the fact about him and Bonnie. But he said he really want it work. ”
Stefan:” That’s good.”
Elena:” Wait, do you think we should help Angel meet his lover？”
Stefan:” I don’t know if that’s a good idea.”
Elena:” Stefan, Angel came to this world, as well as his lover. Don’t you get it He came along, just for Angel.”
Stefan:” Uhh. Only if Angel wants it, ok？”
Elena:” Sure.”
Stefan:” Umm. We are running late, let’s go meet Elijah.”
Elena与Elijah进行了一番长谈，Elijah以匕首为条件，说出了sun and moon curse是伪造的事实，并且承认了他与Klaus的兄弟关系。
Stefan带着Bonnie、Doctor Martin、Luka前往女巫被烧的白房子。Bonnie顺利获得了更强大的能力。
Salvatore宅。
Caroline按了很多遍门铃，终于有人来开门了。
Caroline:” Ah Angel, glad to see you still looking so good.”
Angel淡淡的笑了笑。
Caroline:” So how are you.”
Angel:” Still who I am I guess.”
Caroline:” Angel don’t be like that.”
Angel:” Like what？”
Caroline:” You’ve been stuck in this house for three days and I don’t know why Damon haven’t throw you out since obviously,you’ve drank all his stock.”一个酒瓶非常应景的咕噜噜滚过房间。
Angel:” Caroline where are you getting into？”
Caroline:” You are avoiding!”
Angel:” …”
Caroline:” Ok, let’s think it this way. Maybe this’s the reason whyyou are here. So you can make a decision and move on with your life.”虽然憔悴迷茫的帅哥也很有爱，可Angel的温柔一笑才是最迷人的啊！
Angel:” He is my life, Caroline.”
Caroline:” He is dead! No matter how hard you beat yourself, it not gonna change the past!”
Angel:” …”
Caroline:” Sorry… But Angel, Jeremy may be able to help you find him. Please, meet him, or forget about him.”
Gilbert宅。
Elena正要出门扔垃圾，刚拉开门就看见了站在门前的Angel。
Angel:” I, uh, I need Jeremy’s help.”
Elena:” Come in.”
一分钟后，Caroline, Elena, Bonnie, Stefan, Damon集体聚在Jeremy卧室门口——偷听。
Stefan:” I don’t think we should do this.”
Caroline:” Oh, I’m dying to know the result, can’t wait a second.”
Bonnie:” Jeremy never met Angel’s ex, what if he can’t see him？”
Elena:” Then Angel will need our moral support.”
Stefan:” I think he will need more if he does meet him.”
Elena:” This is too cruel.”
Caroline:” Shh, it’s getting started.”
Jeremy:” So how is he look like？”
Angel:” … He got golden hire, ice blued eyes, and that pleasing and gentle smile, like a real angel…”
Angel的神色有几分迷茫，门外的三个女孩不约而同的流露出心疼的神色。
就在Angel露出了一个怀念的浅笑，打算继续的时候，Jeremy忽然说:” He’s here.”
Angel的身体一颤。
Angel:” Louis…”
Louis: ” My Angel.”
Jeremy低声重复了一遍，Angel瞬间闭上了眼。
Angel:” …I, uh, I bought a ranch in Fairbanks. Heard that’s the best place to see the aurora Polaris. You would love it…”
Louis:” I saw the ranch. Now they are occupied by bunch of reindeers. I love it.”
Angel眼眶终于湿润:” I love you…”
Louis轻轻抚摸着Angel的脸:” I love you too.”
Angel:” I’m so sorry, Louis. I should never leave you. How can I trust them…”
Louis:” No, no, Angel. You didn’t do anything wrong. None of that is your fault.”
Angel:” It is my fault! I feel like such a failure. Even my best friend kept secret.”
Louis:” Don’t blame Eric. He loves you. He sent you here to start a new life.”
Angel:” How can I just left？ And I don’t want a life without you.”
Louis:” Don’t say that. We can’t be together anymore.”
Angel:” I know… 20 years I still can’t accept that…”
门外。
Caroline:” 20 years？! How old is Angel？”
Damon:” 40.”
Caroline:” What？! He looks even younger than you!”
Damon:” After Louis’s death, he froze himself with his body for 10 years.”
女孩们交换了一个震惊的眼神。
门内。
Louis:” I’m really glad you are here, away from Victor, away from H.”
Angel:” I know you don’t like what I did. And I don’t trust Victor.”
Louis:” That’s not enough. Nothing Victor ever done is for your sake. He’s try to control you.”
Angel:” I don’t care.”
Louis:” I know. But it’s too dangerous. You don’t have his ambitious. But you got the power he need. Please Angel, stay here. Have a new life.”
Angel:” Is there any way I can be with you？ How about kill myself then maybe I can see you as well.”
Louis:” No Angel! This is not right. There are so much more in your life than me. We had our chance to be together. Let it go.”
Angel:” No I can’t… I’d rather die with you…”
门外。
Damon听不下去了，转身离开。
Caroline:” We should do something.”
Doctor Martin家。
Damon刚进门，就发现满屋子堆满了摊开的魔法书，三个巫师正在翻找着什么，Caroline和Elijah在看别的记载，Jeremy坐在一边画画。
Damon:” What are you doing？”
Caroline:” I’m tired seeing Angel been so depress. We are gonna find a way to send Louis back or make him come true.”
Damon皱眉:” Make him come true Are you crazy？”
Bonnie:” Just for few hours. So he can say goodbye to Angel. Have that closure that never got.”
Damon:” What if he wants more than just few hours？”
Caroline:” Well, he seems like a nice guy and really care about Angel. He will say goodbye.”
Damon撇嘴。
Luka:” Hi, Bonnie, check this…”
Damon:” And you want to do this？”
Elijah:” Well since lovely Angel is the one I’m really counting on; the sooner he gets back on his game, the better.”
Damon晃了晃头，走到Jeremy身边:” What are you doodling on… What…”
Damon看着Jeremy画的画，忽然沉下了脸，迅速开门走了。
Bonnie:” Jer are you alright.”
Jeremy:” I’m fine.”
Caroline:” What’s wrong with Damon.”
Jeremy:” See it yourself.”
画上Angel露出了小半个侧脸，重点是站在他对面的男人，正抬起一只手抚摸Angel的脸颊，Jeremy很认真的描绘出了他脸上悲伤的表情，和眼睛里对Angel的爱恋。
Caroline:” ‘His eyes are iced blue’…”
Jeremy:” I wasn’t realised just then.”
Bonnie:” Damon got his eyes.”
Caroline:” Um, that can explain why Angel always so nice to Damon.”
Salvatore宅。
Angel走进房间。
”Damon？” Angel叫了一声，接着打开灯。
Damon就坐在床边的椅子上。
Angel:” Why sitting in the dark？”
Angel走到衣橱边脱下外套，Damon突然说:” I have his eyes.” Angel的动作一顿，”That’s why sometimes, when you see me,you weren’t look at me,you were thinking of him.”
Angel:” …yes.”
Damon嗤的笑了一声，站起来就走。
Angel犹豫了一下，还是追了上去。
Angel:” Hey, hey, Damon!”
Damon被Angel抓住才停了下来。
Angel:” Damon, I’m really sorry. If you feel offensive…”
Damon:” Angel I’m not offended. I’m hurt.”
Angel无力的闭了闭眼:” Don’t, don’t make it any harder…”
Damon:” If you don’t get over him, if you don’t get over that guilt, Angel you’ll never be free!”
Angel:”…”
Damon松开了手:” Oh right,you don’t want to be free.”
Damon转身走了。
Tomb.
一瓶鲜血被灌进Katherine嘴里。
“Zradevei, Katerina. I’ve missed you.”
“Klaus…”
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第7章 6. The past
