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　　亲爱的露露，我是个心态很不好的人以至于我被雅思一词压死了。。。。。所以你要原谅这篇长评是用鸟语写的，还有就是。。。忽略我的各种语法错误吧！
When you told me about the quantity of the words required in a comment, I felt that I was going to create an academic thesis, since I had just revived from a long-term battle of homework. But this is just an essay for you. Maybe as you wished you can call it “love letter”, as for me, this is more like a diary.
These weeks, something small but special happened, they were nice memories which I was about to keep in my heart forever, they never failed to cheer me up till now. In my deep heart ,I’m too much a girl…too immature(forgive my logical confusion).
Anyway, the chapter 30 in your fiction arouse me of the following things I’m about to talking about. First ,the title of this chapter reminds of my future: I really want to get further education abroad. So I am doing this crazy thing: writing in English..
In the chapter, LuoYan suffered serious illness, but it seems that he is not afraid of dying. The only thing he was considering about was his dad(his lover?).Everytime when I was trying to understand the relationship between them, I felt that the writer must be mad, but it doesn’t matter, these kind of feelings couldn’t affect the contents’ invading my mind. Life is not easy before you find someone to be with you as your family. I never stop endeavoring to look for a family to which I belong. And I reckon that the reason why I always failed is that I’m not brave enough. Sometimes I envy my father, to a certain extent, I wanted to grow up like him. He can always look forward while I am living in repentance.
Nowadays I’ve heard about a version: You will be regret if you had never done something crazy for the person you love when you are young.
At the end of my college life, I find that maybe I’m about to be the regret one. It’s too late to create memories. It’s not because I have no one to love(maybe I don’t know what love is, but I do like someone). I behaved like an idiot to say nothing back when the boy I liked patted my head and call me clumsy girl; I was such a coward to tell him nothing about my feeling towards him. Until now, everything is too late, even if I asked him to be with me ,nothing would change ,because he is going to USA(damn USA…damn the title..)
I accept all of this ,It’s my destiny maybe .And at least I am alive.
At last, don’t hesitate, just do what you want to ,don’t let your dream be disappeared in reality.
P.S:I miss the prosperity in Beijing.