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108个一个月，我不知是悲还是喜。妈妈终是没有回来。我还在奢望什么？在别人的眼里，我够幸福了！可是，是我太自私太任性了么？总是那么悲观地认为自己不幸福。
从爸爸口中得知，妈妈现在过得很幸福。
在十四岁生日宴会那天，我见了妈妈。她没有爸爸所描述的那么柔情美丽，也不符我心中的窈窕，然而她很清丽，很优雅。是血缘的关系吗？我喜欢她。可是，在对我祝贺时，她是这样的疏离。
“你好。你是穆琉对吧？很漂亮呢，听说你很厉害啊，拿了那么多奖。”她温和地笑着。
“还好。”
“这是我的儿子，比你大一岁，叫阳御庭。”她自豪的说，又笑脸盈盈地抚这旁边女生的头，“这是我唯一的小宝贝，阳茉茉，今年十二了。”
“是么？很好啊。她是你…唯一的女儿？”我问。
“恩。”她满足地点头。
讽刺？不觉得，只是心有点疼而已。已经把我忘了呢。阳茉茉？唯一的宝贝呵，你可知我有多嫉妒你啊……妈妈，你已经不是我唯一的妈妈了。
爸爸说妈妈间接性失忆了，逃避了不愿接受的事物。
不愿接受…么？
我一怔，摇摇头，笑着看着荀苑在台上蹦蹦跳跳。
是该高兴点了，今天毕竟是初三毕业了啊。眨眨眼，有些湿润。
“六月，该你唱了！”荀苑从台下蹦下来，抹抹额上的汗，对我笑笑。
“你代我吧。”我推辞。我不喜欢唱歌，从来不喜欢。因为妈妈曾说过，阳茉茉很喜欢唱歌。所以我把歌练得很好，但是我不喜欢唱歌，一点都不。
“诶？大歌星又不唱歌啊。”荀苑失望地说，转而无奈地点点头，“好啦，每次都是我代你唱。”
“谢谢。”我笑笑。荀苑很开朗，但这并不代表她很单纯。她是荀氏企业的唯一继承人，从幼稚园起就被接受这精英教育，何为心计，何为奸诈，她明白的很透彻。和她一样，我也接受着精英教育，只是因为天资不同，我学的比她快，就有更多的时间来学习其他的东西或是对之前学得东西更深入的研究。
她裂开一个大大的笑容，对我挑挑眉，粗着嗓子吼道：“Girlfriend！”
音乐响起，四射的霓虹灯照耀着台上的荀苑。
这个场地被我们包的。台下的我们班的几个男生对着荀苑射以火辣辣的目光。
荀苑的身体随着节奏而摇晃，勾起的唇角溢出好听的歌词：
“ Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend”
“Hey Hey You You
I know that you like me
No way No way
No, it's not a secret
Hey Hey You You
I want to be your girlfriend
You're so fine
I want you mine
You're so delicious
I think about you all the time
You're so addictive
Don't you know
What I can do
To make you feel alright”
荀苑挥着胳膊，跳着动感的舞蹈：
“ Hey Hey You You
I know that you like me
No way No way
No, it's not a secret
Hey Hey You You
I want to be your girlfriend
I can see the way
I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time
again and again
So come over here
and tell me what I wanna hear
Better,yet, make your girlfriend disappear
I don't wanna hear you say her name
ever again
Because...
She's like so whatever
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about
Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend
Hey Hey You You
I know that you like me
No way No way
No, it's not a secret
Hey Hey You You
I want to be your girlfriend
In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking
In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend
(No Way)
Hey Hey You You
I know that you like me
No way No way
No, it's not a secret
Hey Hey You You
I want to be your girlfriend
Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend ( No Way!)
No way No way
I think you need a new one (Hey!)
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend (No Way!)
Hey Hey You You
I know that you like me (Now Way!)
No way No way
No, it's not a secret (Hey!)
Hey Hey You You
I want to be your girlfriend (No Way!)
Don't pretend
I think you know
I'm damn precious
And hell yeah
I'm the mother fucking princess
I can tell you like me too
And you know I'm right
She's like so whatever
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about
Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend”
“刺啦——”喇叭发出一声响，紧接着是非常好听的声音，“穆琉，我喜欢你！”
我低垂着头，身体微微颤抖。
班里的几个男生都在起哄：“答应！答应！”
又有一群女生把我簇拥着上台。阳御庭对着我笑笑，说：“穆琉，我喜欢你。”
我“嗤”地一笑，忍住将要落下的泪，淡漠地撇过头。微微正过头来，我看见他精致的面容，心中仿佛被什么牵扯着……
我扭头就跑，听见身后传来一声闷闷地声音：“小琉，对不起……”
不，该说对不起的是我。
闭上眼，满是阳御庭精致的脸：金黄的碎发与阳光融为一体，挑染了几缕黑发。额前斜着的飞扬碎发下，一双犹如琥珀的墨绿色瞳孔，幽长的睫毛在风中轻盈舞动。哥哥，如果你不是我哥哥……对不起，本就不该接近你的……
突然，一阵刺眼的光芒闪过，我突然意识到我现在正在马路上。身体一阵刺痛，模糊中，我看见一双干净的宝蓝色眸子……
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第2章 告白
