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13、老了好些年

　　打开电脑，翻看着以前的存档。零零落落的文字，在文件夹里，安静的没有声音！都是些以前写的情节，总是想着出一本自己的小说，却总是被搁浅。想来，我总不算是一个能够从一而终的人。
　　纽约的天气，总是意外的突袭。有事万里无云，有时候也会突然的就阴霾了整个天空。我给自己煮了杯咖啡，整理了几个章节，头疼的厉害，干脆就蜷在椅子上听歌！
　　这个本子，是萧瑞在的时候，就已经买了的，有时候他懒得取他的，就直接就着我的用，音乐列表里有一溜儿全是shayne word的歌,有时候我窝在沙发上看书的时候，就会时不时的听到这个男人的声音，缠缠绵绵的调子，很适合放在星巴克里。
　　记得有次我还拿这个调侃他，“你还喜欢听男人的歌！”
　　他头也不抬的敲键盘，“你不喜欢？”当时有软软的旋律，绕过全身，我慵懒的闭眼，“当然喜欢！”听到他低低的笑，“难得你喜欢！”
　　“我又不和你唱反调！”
　　“那最好！”
　　当时，我就鄙视自己了，不过，这样天籁的声音还真是不容拒绝的，他唱，
　　if our love was a fairy tale
　　i would charge in and rescue you
　　on a yacht baby we would sail
　　to an island where we'd say i do
　　and if we had babies they would look like you
　　it'd be so beautiful if that came true
　　you don't even know how very special you are
　　chorus
　　you leave me breathless
　　you're everything good in my life
　　you leave me breathless
　　i still can't believe that you're mine
　　you just walked out of one of my dreams
　　so beautiful you're leaving me
　　breathless
　　and if our love was a story book
　　we would meet on the very first page
　　the last chapter would be about
　　how i'm thankful for the life we've made
　　and if we had babies they would have your eyes
　　i would fall deeper watching you give life
　　you don't even know how very special you are
　　you're everything good in my life
　　you leave me breathless
　　i still can't believe that you're mine
　　you just walked out of one of my dreams
　　so beautiful you're leaving me
　　you must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
　　you're like an angel
　　the thing that i feel is stronger than love believe me
　　you're something special
　　i only hope that i'll one day deserve what you've given me
　　but all i can do is try
　　every day of my life
　　you leave me breathless
　　you're everything good in my life
　　you leave me breathless
　　i still can't believe that you're mine
　　you just walked out of one of my dreams
　　so beautiful you're leaving me
　　breathless
　　you leave me breathless
　　you're everything good in my life
　　you leave me breathless
　　i still can't believe that you're mine
　　you just walked out of one of my dreams
　　so beautiful you're leaving me
　　breathless
　　我循环的听着，意识里被baby两个字揪着，如果，有个孩子，那还有什么好遗憾的呢！
　　看看时间，竟然是凌晨两点半。
　　我知道，这个夜晚，不会被睡觉占满，我给自己煮了红枣栗子茶，我想我需要的，不止是温暖。我没想到，在离开的这么久之后，我连自己的身体都温暖不了！
　　我没想做的这么绝，只是，这次，不想再给自己留后路而已！