《365 Days of Polaris》萸宸冰

2、Day2

　　I've never spent my weekend at the sewing lab, well, till now. There are a lot projects due this week， still I was surprised by the large group of students at the lab today. It felt good to know the school would never be empty. Sandra was there with her charming smile and lovely special hair-do. She gave a big hug, as always. And I really needed it today.

　　Do you have a friend like my Sandra No matter what made you upset, or let you down, by the moment you see her/him, everything just seemed all light and bright. All your negative attitudes fade behind her/his smile. I'm glad she was at the lab today.

　　I don't really want to explain what has frustrated me, for the parent-child relationship is always complicated. The biggest problem is the on going issue of communication between families. There will not be an end nor there will be a certain conclusion. It's an on going negotiation between people who are genetically linked, however, still don't quite understand each other's feelings and thoughts.

　　I would just say, I was never the typical perfect child and I will never be one. My stubbornness showed through my insistency of making my own life decisions. They were never approved by my parents, and probably will never be. My cousin believes that my parents do feel proud of me. To me,my parents put up with me because I was just the only one, the only choice they have ever got. After years of negotiation, I have found my solution, which is stop negotiating. I will never be an investment banker as my mom, and will not live a regular 9-5 job. My parents always thought of me as being difficult. Ironically, they raised me to be so. When your parents were too busy working and traveling during you entire childhood and even teenage years, all you left with were books and your own thoughts. To them I might be too free a spirit, and they tried all their power to control the spirit and failed.

　　No matter what, I know who I am. Will never give in to any one, will never give up due to anything. I just hope one day, they can see me and accept the fact that I make decisions only based on who I am.

作者有话说

　　Growing up is shown through a lot of things. A important one is to be able to tolerate one's parents' criticism and still show them your love and care afterwards. I called my mom a day after, and it is the first time I have offered my friendship after their harsh criticism. It is not about them being right or wrong anymore. It is about being a child and knowing after certain age, you parents need you to consulate them even though they were supposed to be the mature ones.