《意隐故事---明玉轮》夏意隐

89、清除 上午黎鸦又

　　上午黎鸦又被Moonlord（月主）叫了过去。据说，今天他要做一次罪孽清除的仪式。

　　应为众所周知，Moonlord（月主）是每一世、每一人的化身。这一先决条件很完美地解决了有些被亏欠的人没有在这一世被重逢或是根本就没有降生的难题。

　　黎鸦来到了Moonlord（月主）的房间。一个看上去40左右岁的女人和Moonlord（月主）正面对面坐在客厅中心的两个椅子上。Moonlord（月主）看到黎鸦来很开心，他让她在靠墙的沙发上坐下，并指示她打开相机，开始摄像。

　　Moonlord（月主）：“You are going to interview me like a talk show host. Have you seen one of those on TV? You need to ask me questions, like what the ceremony is about, why it's held, just improvise, and I'll answer. And then we'll get started when we have the backstory laid out.（你要像一个采访者一样采访我。看过吗？电视里的采访者？你要问问题，比如这个仪式是关于什么的，为什么要举行这个仪式等等这样的，即兴发挥，然后我来回答。我们以这样的形式把来龙去脉交代完之后就正式开始。）”

　　黎鸦：“Do I need to ask this lady questions?（那我需要问这个女士问题吗？）”

　　Moonlord（月主）：“Yeah, you know what, that's actually better. A real testimony is better.（可以，我想这样更好，比我讲要更真实。）”

　　黎鸦：“OK, then without further ado, let's dive right in. First, ma'am, why do you need this sin-cleansing ceremony? If you don't mind.（好，那废话不多说我就开始了。首先，我想先问这位女士，为什么你需要一次罪孽清除仪式？方便讲吗？）”

　　女人：“Yeah, definitely. So, uh... it all started with my son—the world’s most precious, cute, chubby boy. He was 12 when he started having trouble at school. You see, his father and I got divorced when he was quite little, and it’s always been me providing for this family. He’s an introverted kid, like his dad, but then again, nothing like his dad. His dad basically abandoned us—yeah, abandoned, you can call it that. It was devastating for my son. He had to take a lot: the kids at school laughed at him for that, so he got even more reserved; and the more reserved he was, the more they laughed at him—you know how it goes—until he went completely silent. One time, a kid tripped him while he was running to his classroom. He broke his leg. At first, he stayed home to recover, but then he just wouldn't go back to school anymore. I was angry at first because, you know, you’re a man—I’m not asking you to bite the bullet, but you can’t just run away from your problems like your dad did. One day, I wanted to talk to him about it and he refused, so I got so furious that I just barged in and grabbed him. He started screaming in pain... He had been cutting himself. Rows of scars, and some were even unhealed. I just couldn't... I just couldn't at that point. What kind of mom am I? I didn't even know what my own son had been going through this whole freaking time! I even thought he was just being weak! I know I wasn't there for him enough, but I worked three jobs—three! How could I? I was spread too thin! It’s hard, it’s really hard! I had to put food on the table and make sure there was a roof over our heads. I really didn't know what to do...（可以。嗯，要说为什么，我的儿子在学校遇见一些麻烦。他那时12岁，是一个胖胖的小男孩。我和他爸爸很早就离婚了，一直是我一个人在养他。他本身性格就比较内向，和他爸爸一样，但和他爸爸完全不一样。他爸爸基本上算是抛弃了我们，这件事对他的打击很大，同学们也拿这件事笑话他。他们越是这样对他，他就越沉闷，越是沉闷他们就更欺负他。一次不知道是哪个孩子趁着下课他换教室的时候绊了他一脚，骨了折。一开始他是因为养伤在家，但是后来他就再也不肯去学校了。我本来很生气，一个男孩子，不说顶天立地，但还是要坚强，逃避不是办法，像他爸爸一样。有一次我想跟他谈谈，他不要，我就想把他从床上拽起来，结果他就直喊疼，等我把袖子一掀开，是一道道伤口。哎呀，这看得我... 这看得我... 我到底是怎么当妈的，孩子出了这样的问题我竟然不知道，我还以为他只是太软弱！我平时对他关心的不够，这个我承认，可是我也是真的没办法。很难，真的很难！我要养家、我要把食物放在桌子上、我要让我们头上有屋顶。我真的不知道怎么去做...）”

　　她泣不成声，很难再继续。

　　Moonlord（月主）：“But it led you to me.（但是你也因此遇见我。）”

　　女人：“That's the only good thing coming out of it. I had the honor of hearing one of the Moonlord's teachings and I was awakened ever since. My son is suffering for me—for my sins. Before my son was born, I had an abortion. I selfishly stripped that soul of its right to live, so I understand why it must hold so much resentment, especially toward my son. It's unfair, I know, but this is my fault. I should be the one to suffer, not him. Before that, we went to many therapists, tried medication and even psychics-（对。这是其中唯一的幸运。我听了月主的讲座，醍醐灌顶。我知道是我的孩子在替我承受我的罪孽。我曾经打掉过一个孩子。它还没降世，我却自私地剥夺了它生存的权利，所以我能理解它的内心有很多怨恨，尤其是对我儿子。它会感到不公，我知道，但是这是我的错，让我来承受，和我儿子没有关系。在此之前，我带他看了很多心理医生、吃药，甚至去了一些所谓的灵媒-）”

　　黎鸦：“Does it work?（有没有效果？）”

　　女人：“No, the meds, they just numbed him. He once even told me that being sad but being unable to feel that sadness is even more painful, like a dammed-up river with nowhere to flow. I was at the end of my rope. I didn't know what to do. But it was then we found Moonlord, our blessing of the lifetime.（没有，那些药只是让他变得麻木。他甚至一次和我说在伤心的时候却不能伤心是一种更大的痛苦，就像被淤堵的河水找不到出口。我真的不知道该怎么做了，但也正是在这样走投无路的时候我们遇见月主，这是我们的福气。）”

　　黎鸦：“What about the psychics?（灵媒呢？）”

　　女人闭眼摇摇头。

　　黎鸦：So is he better now?（那现在你儿子已经好了吗？）”

　　女人：“Just like every other kid, if not better. This is a miracle! I keep saying this, but it's true, it's how I feel, a full-blown miracle! All those therapies, those methods... none of them worked. But here, Moonlord talked to him one—no, twice—and he decided to stay for a while. No kidding, I’m not kidding—after just one month, he was all cured. This is a miracle that even God never delivered! He went back to school! He lost so much weight; he became a whole new person. If you knew what he was like before... he couldn't even look people in the eye or utter a single word. But look at him now—he’s a star at school now. His singing talent was discovered here in the Moonlive. The Moonlord and everyone else here just gave him so much love and power, I just couldn't be more grateful!（完全好了，就像是奇迹，真的是奇迹，我总是这么说，因为这就是我感觉到的。你想我们看了那么多医生，试了那么多方法。但是就在这儿，月主和他谈过两次，之后他就在这里住下了。我不骗你，我不骗你，一个月后，就一个月，这就是奇迹，这是上帝都没有降临过的奇迹！他好了，他变得那么生龙活虎，他愿意去上学，你能相信吗？他瘦了不少，整个人的精气神都变了。他之前哪敢看人，哪敢说话，现在你能想象吗，他是学校的明星人物，他的声音很好听，这是他在这里才发现的天赋，这里的月团乐团，月主主还有这里的所有人给了他太多的力量，我感激到不能再感激了！）”

　　黎鸦：“So he's in school now.（所以他现在在学校？）”

　　女人：“No, it's Sunday, isn't it? No school today. He insisted on coming with me. I bet he's out in the orchard right now. He used to work in the orchard, he loves it there. (不，没有，今天不上学，今天不是周末吗，他知道我要来也非吵着要来。他现在正在果园里干活呢，他之前就在果园做工，他对那儿特别有感情。）”

　　今天是周末啊，黎鸦从这里都待到没有时间概念了。

　　黎鸦：“If it's all good now, what the ceremony is for? （那既然已经好了的话，今天为什么还要做仪式呢？）”

　　女人：“The kid is good, thanks to Moonlord, but my own sin remains. I must appease that unborn soul through Moonlord, knowing that I didn't just take its life—I deprived it of its own right to atone and to receive redemption from others. My guilt is far too heavy. （孩子好了，那是他幸运被月主救赎，但是我身上还有余孽，我必须要通过月主忏悔并安抚那个从未降世的孩子的灵魂。我不仅扼杀了它生命的可能，还剥夺了它为自己前世过错赎罪的责任和接受别人向它赎罪的权利。我的罪孽太过深重。）”

　　Moonlord（月主）：“Exactly. You have a very clear understanding of it all now. Do you have any other questions?（没错，看来你对这一切都已经有了很清晰的认知。你还有别的问题想问的吗？）”

　　黎鸦：“I'm just curious what kind of thing can have this magnitude of healing power.（我很好奇到底是什么能够有这样的治愈性。）”

　　Moonlord（月主）：“Wrong question-（错误问题-）”

　　女人：“The power of Moonlord.（月主的能量。）”

　　黎鸦：“Yeah, right, I'm saying like in what way or what kind of method?（对，我是说月主使用什么样的方法呢?）”

　　Moonlord（月主）：“You are fundamentally wrong. This isn't a method; it is a power. It is the answer to why I can do what no one else can.（你错在了根本。这不是方法，这是一种力量，是为什么其他人不能做到而我能做到的答案。）”

　　女人：“This is a divine power—a force that changes anyone who's in the Moonlord's presence. And I suspect that is why you are here by his side as well.（对，这是一种神圣的力量，只要是在月主附近就能够被改变的力量。我想这也是你为什么会在月主身边的原因。）”

　　黎鸦被怼得没话说。

　　Moonlord（月主）：“Any other questions?（你还有没有什么问题？）”

　　他的语气已经稍有一丝不耐烦，

　　黎鸦：“No.（没有了。）”

　　Moonlord（月主）：“OK, then let's get it started.（好，那我们正式开始吧。）”

　　女人哭诉忏悔。

　　Moonlord（月主）作为婴灵接受忏悔并原谅。

　　罪孽就这样被清除啦！

　　女人留下了一个黑布袋子，再三表达感谢之后就离开了。

　　Moonlord（月主）打开袋子，倒出了一些金银饰品，放在手上把玩了把玩。

　　他把Dalia叫进门。

　　Moonlord（月主）：“Give it to the girls. It won't fetch enough for a meal.（分给女孩子们吧，当不了一顿饭钱。）”